Sorrows of The Heart

I've done the waiting game on the phone before
I've done the worry as I sit back against my pillows
I've done the crying on my pillow at night
I've done the drinking the pain away
Crying wishing he would stay
Think bout the pain that came about
And wonder if love will ever love me back someday
Seen all that I have done
It makes me wonder
I am doing the right things or even the right choices
I loved them I swear I did
I wanted to make it work I swear
I love from a distance
I loved them as if they were close
I poured all my essential
From love down to trust
But the end something always go a rye
Like nothing is easy for the openhearted
Like the pain of the distance heart fades over time
And I pray for them
They remain happy after me
They grown into love beyond me
And with that prayer they leave
They come to me rebuild what was broken
And after to me they leave
I swear God uses me as a messenger of Love
But as a curse the Devil has placed
Its not fair how things play out
Its not fair how everything goes against me
But it seems I am growing
I still have not harden my heart
Because I know this fact I drive on
My time may not be now but I know its coming
Something that is waiting
I pray not for a man but for a compatible companion
God will bless me with such a man
Someone who truly understands
Someone who is not just my lover
But also my best friend
Who will stand with me thru thick and thin
Someone to be consider my beginning and my end