Heart To Mind Conversation

Wow I didn’t know I had that with in me
I didn’t know I break something that was fragile in the first place
I didn’t know if the heart that was really that empty
I couldn’t imagine something like this was possible
But the options I gave myself I thought went away
But I guess without someone here telling me no
I went forth and became a repeat offender
I cant even say I’m sorry
Did so much shyt it was crazy
All because of one day I thought you abandon me
Now you say something that would make it better
And now nothing
I think I’m  being too irrational
Maybe I make decision to quickly
But some reason my body carries no remorse
It says there is nothing you can do
You have been doing this for far too long
Why are you going thru this again
Why are you wasting more time on fake relations
What is the purpose of pushing
Then the outcome is shady and pay off is nothing
You know better than to contribute so damn much
And you know better to not have a plan to fall back on
But the actions of my heart is now running this show
Mind say something must be done
We all can not keep going on living like this
We must give everything a chance
Not everything is meant to be rationalized
Sometimes you must jumping head first
But my mind says I like where I am
I don’t want you heart to be hurt
You’ve been so many times
So why not stick to what we all know
Give yourself time to heal
Your rushing
Take some more time
My heart say I’ve had all the time to rest
Thank you for giving me that
Its time for us to be a full entity
We must unity and see
If this love is worth everything
Trust is nothing compared to forgiveness
So lets forgive
Lets behave
Please?
My mind say…………..Fine