"Have you come to terms with everything? Can I say that's what your tears are for?"
"It finally hit me. I did not think it would hit me while I was laying next to you."
"Its strange when it happens. I had my moment right before you came up to see me. I never stepped out on my wife so the thought of really making love to someone else outside of her was a bit over whelming. "
"Have you already asked yourself why me?"
"More than once. I have been watching my marriage deteriorate for years. I tried after each encounter that was told to me but nothing seem to work or change how she felt about our marriage."
"Do you miss her at all?"
"Honestly? No I don't. I gave myself as best as I could. I wont say I am perfect. I had many flaws attached to me but not so many to where they could not be worked out if told."
"I feel the same way"
We talked about our marriage and where things went wrong. I never thought I'll be discussing this with someone. It felt good to get all my aggression, pains, sorrows and tears out. Normally this is done through marriage counseling but I guess with the both of us going through the same thing, we had much to reflect on.
"What should we do now?"
"I think we should move forward from this and see where life places us. I do not want you to be with me because we are both in vulnerable states. I've heard that couples that beginning that way barely make it long term. "
"Are you saying that you want to keep me despite everything that has happened?"
"I am...would it be strange if I said that maybe God has removed one toxic thing from my life to make room for something better... greater. I have dealt with so much and felt alone ever since she decided our union meant nothing. Now I want to work more towards something that I contributed to in the neglect. I need more than just my work but more work into someone that would appreciate it."
All I could do was listen to him speak and tears started to flow more from my eyes. They were not tears of hurt and pain but of comfort and relief. I felt the same way as him. I understood so much of his words that I really thought I was listening to myself. He saw me crying, sat up and told me to place my head on the pillow. Before I could ask what he was doing he placed his head on my chest. I realized the position we were in was a comfort for me and now he wanted the same. As he hugged my hips, I placed my hand on his head and caressed him gently. We were both tired of the chain of events and just needed to be held by someone willing to allow vulnerability to set in and be that safe place. We laid with each other in that position and fell asleep. I did not want to move from that moment. Theses were the things I cherished with my husband on days that were too rough and things were going wrong in every direction. now I know the power of comfort and tranquility that is needed not only for myself but for those around me is a must to make it through all of this. Deshawn was now in my life and now becoming my safe space.
"How long have I been asleep?"
"A couple of hours...why do you ask?"
"I need to get something complete for work"
"Your just as much of a workaholic as me"
"I hope that does not become a problem". Deshawn walked over to me and kiss me on the forehead and then the lips. "I wont make the same mistakes as your last. I know where you stand and why. I wont allow the time apart to make us distant with no comprehension". Hearing those words made me smile and aroused in a major way. We made love again before leaving for the summation meeting with my company. I need to make sure that the damage from marriage did not carry over to my company.
" And in conclusion, the company during this week has gained 24 -5 year clients, 17- 3 year clients and 31- 6 months to a year clients according to the new stipulations made to our policies. The turn over rate for those 31 clients are below 23%. Updates for new clients will begin at the start of next month. Evaluation of there incoming companies will also begin during that time. This will give the time necessary to drop any clients not holding up their company in the standards needed. Are there any questions regarding the clients, methods and changes for the upcoming months?"
" Yes I have one. What will happen to those clients listed under the new stipulations 6-12 month contracts once expired?" Asked Senator West
"Those clients will be reevaluated and on a one month hold until all stages of the contract has been refilled. If not they will be dropped for three month until standards are met. Theses are nonnegotiable terms and all know them." I responded
"What will happen if a 3-5 year client goes under while with this company?" Asked Senior Thomas.
"All clients regardless of time frame have all signed a disclosure if their company goes under. The liability of not maintaining their company will not fall on us unless we have an open share with them. Currently our vets are the only open share holders we have. To gain a open share the client will have to reinstate another 5 years which would make them gain a 10 year tenner. It insure that the company is going strong and has minimal flaws. Theses additions to the policy weeds out companies that have poor ratings and business practices."
"How often..." The questions continued for a good 20 minutes about the clients until one from Senior West was asked pertaining to me specifically. "What will you do with your new found ventures and how do you plan to maintain your commitments to this company?" The room got quiet. Everyone was staring at me waiting for my answer. I took a deep breathe, smiled and responded in a way that says I am here to stay and that I am ok.
"I'm working hard to make sure this company remains on top and with very little collateral as possible. We have come a long way since the Demetry Era. With all of the new venture Ill be involved in I promise none of them will interfere with my commitments here. I've had loses but through those same loses not only have I gained, but so has this company. I'm going to do my duties to greatest of my abilities with the guidance of my colleagues."
Everyone nodded their head in agreement with my statement. Senior West and Thomas met me at the end of meeting with open arms. They did link me up with a great attorney that was speedy with the divorce decree.I could not ask for anything more. As I made my way to the hotel elevator I notice my husband sitting in the central rest are> I decided to approach him not to have another confrontation but to get the rest of my feelings out. I needed peace of mind and this was the only way I knew I could get that.
"Monica"
"Why are you still here?"
"I got a room here hoping that we could spend time together after your meetings but apparently I have it now just to sulk in"
"I guess I placed you in a sunken place like you did me. How does it feel to have everything taken from you?"
"I understand that I can not get you back from this ordeal. I've accepted this now. I am truly sorry for all of this. I own all of my decision making leading up to this point."
"I don't hate you no more than I hate myself. strange as that sounds I blamed myself for some of the things you've decided. I'm moving on from this with a much better mindset. Thank you"
Why are you thanking you me?"
"I know now all the things I need to work on not only as a business woman but as a woman. I'm in a better position than other women who barely get any answers for their cheating spouses. Plus I gained more than what I lost. It does compensate but it helps."
"Your taking this breakup much easier than I am. Did you love meat all"
"I loved you without question. My faithfulness towards you was unaltered regardless who tried me. This is why I am taking it the way that I am. I had my break down moment but luckily i had someone to talk to to get me through this."
"You mean..."
"She means me" said Deshawn from the side panel door. "Like I said she will be ok and I'm going to make the best of it."
I stood there watching Deshawn flex in front of me. All i could was blush. i could see my husbands face get red. I grabbed Deshawn's hand and held it. He starred at me with a intense look. Something tells me that I will not have anything to worry about. My husband stepped back with his hands up in defeat and walked away. I could tell the way my life is going now that I will be ok.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~2 Years Later~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"What do you want to eat, wait never mind I know already. Be back in a few"
"You think you know me, Huh?"
"I know you very well"
"Your going to bring me the wrong thing"
"I bet you money that..."
"Oh Hush and go get the food. We are hangry"
"So demanding and I love it. I just hope DJ doesn't come out like you"
"What exactly is that..."
"Nope, not arguing. I'm out. Be back soon"
What am I going to do with him I thought to myself. After that week in Kansas so much of my life had changed. Deshawn and I decided to stay together. We took our time and dated for a while. We found out that we had so much in common. But the main factor is that our work kept us extremely busy. So many late night phone conversations and strategy talks made us a power couple. His divorce was swift with the evidence he had against her. My divorce took a lot longer because of his stalling. After I made myself clear for the last time that we were over, he finally signed. We had our ups and downs but mainly everything was surrounding work. If I had anything to say about it, I think he got my pregnant on purpose to slow me down. It did not work. I was in the office all the way to my seventh month. We found out I was having a boy. He jumped at the chance to name him DJ. I was against it but gave in for as long as his middle name was after my late father. We have such a strong bond together. I have don't more with Deshawn than I had done in the first four years of my previous marriage. I'm so happy how things have changed and made us better.
"I'm back bae" he announced while closing the door with his foot.
"What did you get?" I wondered
" Catfish Creole with sweet rolls, steamed veggies and..."
"aaaarooooouuuggghhhhhhhhhh"
"Oh damn!!" he exclaimed
"Get that out of here before I throw up again". He came closer to me with a evil look.
"You can't eat fish either. You didn't have that problem weeks ago. but its funny. You remind me of that night my little exorcist"
"Your not...(burp)...". All I could was laugh. "I need something else". He through me the keys and said it your turn then. I truly love this man and everything he does for me. This child will come into this world with much love. I have never been so happy in my life.
THE END
Words from the Author:
This story took me almost 3 years to finish. I have been through a lot but so glad that my writing has not diminished with time. I have many more ideas to write down. My grammar is horrible I know and much editing is needed but I'm doing this to release my creativity. Everyone need a space to be themselves. this place is mine. Enjoy story time with me.
"Do you miss her at all?"
"Honestly? No I don't. I gave myself as best as I could. I wont say I am perfect. I had many flaws attached to me but not so many to where they could not be worked out if told."
"I feel the same way"
We talked about our marriage and where things went wrong. I never thought I'll be discussing this with someone. It felt good to get all my aggression, pains, sorrows and tears out. Normally this is done through marriage counseling but I guess with the both of us going through the same thing, we had much to reflect on.
"What should we do now?"
"I think we should move forward from this and see where life places us. I do not want you to be with me because we are both in vulnerable states. I've heard that couples that beginning that way barely make it long term. "
"Are you saying that you want to keep me despite everything that has happened?"
"I am...would it be strange if I said that maybe God has removed one toxic thing from my life to make room for something better... greater. I have dealt with so much and felt alone ever since she decided our union meant nothing. Now I want to work more towards something that I contributed to in the neglect. I need more than just my work but more work into someone that would appreciate it."
All I could do was listen to him speak and tears started to flow more from my eyes. They were not tears of hurt and pain but of comfort and relief. I felt the same way as him. I understood so much of his words that I really thought I was listening to myself. He saw me crying, sat up and told me to place my head on the pillow. Before I could ask what he was doing he placed his head on my chest. I realized the position we were in was a comfort for me and now he wanted the same. As he hugged my hips, I placed my hand on his head and caressed him gently. We were both tired of the chain of events and just needed to be held by someone willing to allow vulnerability to set in and be that safe place. We laid with each other in that position and fell asleep. I did not want to move from that moment. Theses were the things I cherished with my husband on days that were too rough and things were going wrong in every direction. now I know the power of comfort and tranquility that is needed not only for myself but for those around me is a must to make it through all of this. Deshawn was now in my life and now becoming my safe space.
"How long have I been asleep?"
"A couple of hours...why do you ask?"
"I need to get something complete for work"
"Your just as much of a workaholic as me"
"I hope that does not become a problem". Deshawn walked over to me and kiss me on the forehead and then the lips. "I wont make the same mistakes as your last. I know where you stand and why. I wont allow the time apart to make us distant with no comprehension". Hearing those words made me smile and aroused in a major way. We made love again before leaving for the summation meeting with my company. I need to make sure that the damage from marriage did not carry over to my company.
" And in conclusion, the company during this week has gained 24 -5 year clients, 17- 3 year clients and 31- 6 months to a year clients according to the new stipulations made to our policies. The turn over rate for those 31 clients are below 23%. Updates for new clients will begin at the start of next month. Evaluation of there incoming companies will also begin during that time. This will give the time necessary to drop any clients not holding up their company in the standards needed. Are there any questions regarding the clients, methods and changes for the upcoming months?"
" Yes I have one. What will happen to those clients listed under the new stipulations 6-12 month contracts once expired?" Asked Senator West
"Those clients will be reevaluated and on a one month hold until all stages of the contract has been refilled. If not they will be dropped for three month until standards are met. Theses are nonnegotiable terms and all know them." I responded
"What will happen if a 3-5 year client goes under while with this company?" Asked Senior Thomas.
"All clients regardless of time frame have all signed a disclosure if their company goes under. The liability of not maintaining their company will not fall on us unless we have an open share with them. Currently our vets are the only open share holders we have. To gain a open share the client will have to reinstate another 5 years which would make them gain a 10 year tenner. It insure that the company is going strong and has minimal flaws. Theses additions to the policy weeds out companies that have poor ratings and business practices."
"How often..." The questions continued for a good 20 minutes about the clients until one from Senior West was asked pertaining to me specifically. "What will you do with your new found ventures and how do you plan to maintain your commitments to this company?" The room got quiet. Everyone was staring at me waiting for my answer. I took a deep breathe, smiled and responded in a way that says I am here to stay and that I am ok.
"I'm working hard to make sure this company remains on top and with very little collateral as possible. We have come a long way since the Demetry Era. With all of the new venture Ill be involved in I promise none of them will interfere with my commitments here. I've had loses but through those same loses not only have I gained, but so has this company. I'm going to do my duties to greatest of my abilities with the guidance of my colleagues."
Everyone nodded their head in agreement with my statement. Senior West and Thomas met me at the end of meeting with open arms. They did link me up with a great attorney that was speedy with the divorce decree.I could not ask for anything more. As I made my way to the hotel elevator I notice my husband sitting in the central rest are> I decided to approach him not to have another confrontation but to get the rest of my feelings out. I needed peace of mind and this was the only way I knew I could get that.
"Monica"
"Why are you still here?"
"I got a room here hoping that we could spend time together after your meetings but apparently I have it now just to sulk in"
"I guess I placed you in a sunken place like you did me. How does it feel to have everything taken from you?"
"I understand that I can not get you back from this ordeal. I've accepted this now. I am truly sorry for all of this. I own all of my decision making leading up to this point."
"I don't hate you no more than I hate myself. strange as that sounds I blamed myself for some of the things you've decided. I'm moving on from this with a much better mindset. Thank you"
Why are you thanking you me?"
"I know now all the things I need to work on not only as a business woman but as a woman. I'm in a better position than other women who barely get any answers for their cheating spouses. Plus I gained more than what I lost. It does compensate but it helps."
"Your taking this breakup much easier than I am. Did you love meat all"
"I loved you without question. My faithfulness towards you was unaltered regardless who tried me. This is why I am taking it the way that I am. I had my break down moment but luckily i had someone to talk to to get me through this."
"You mean..."
"She means me" said Deshawn from the side panel door. "Like I said she will be ok and I'm going to make the best of it."
I stood there watching Deshawn flex in front of me. All i could was blush. i could see my husbands face get red. I grabbed Deshawn's hand and held it. He starred at me with a intense look. Something tells me that I will not have anything to worry about. My husband stepped back with his hands up in defeat and walked away. I could tell the way my life is going now that I will be ok.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~2 Years Later~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"What do you want to eat, wait never mind I know already. Be back in a few"
"You think you know me, Huh?"
"I know you very well"
"Your going to bring me the wrong thing"
"I bet you money that..."
"Oh Hush and go get the food. We are hangry"
"So demanding and I love it. I just hope DJ doesn't come out like you"
"What exactly is that..."
"Nope, not arguing. I'm out. Be back soon"
What am I going to do with him I thought to myself. After that week in Kansas so much of my life had changed. Deshawn and I decided to stay together. We took our time and dated for a while. We found out that we had so much in common. But the main factor is that our work kept us extremely busy. So many late night phone conversations and strategy talks made us a power couple. His divorce was swift with the evidence he had against her. My divorce took a lot longer because of his stalling. After I made myself clear for the last time that we were over, he finally signed. We had our ups and downs but mainly everything was surrounding work. If I had anything to say about it, I think he got my pregnant on purpose to slow me down. It did not work. I was in the office all the way to my seventh month. We found out I was having a boy. He jumped at the chance to name him DJ. I was against it but gave in for as long as his middle name was after my late father. We have such a strong bond together. I have don't more with Deshawn than I had done in the first four years of my previous marriage. I'm so happy how things have changed and made us better.
"I'm back bae" he announced while closing the door with his foot.
"What did you get?" I wondered
" Catfish Creole with sweet rolls, steamed veggies and..."
"aaaarooooouuuggghhhhhhhhhh"
"Oh damn!!" he exclaimed
"Get that out of here before I throw up again". He came closer to me with a evil look.
"You can't eat fish either. You didn't have that problem weeks ago. but its funny. You remind me of that night my little exorcist"
"Your not...(burp)...". All I could was laugh. "I need something else". He through me the keys and said it your turn then. I truly love this man and everything he does for me. This child will come into this world with much love. I have never been so happy in my life.
THE END
Words from the Author:
This story took me almost 3 years to finish. I have been through a lot but so glad that my writing has not diminished with time. I have many more ideas to write down. My grammar is horrible I know and much editing is needed but I'm doing this to release my creativity. Everyone need a space to be themselves. this place is mine. Enjoy story time with me.
