Wishes, Pains and the Next

I cant stop from crying
And all because I heard a song
Amanda Perez - Angel
I don’t know where you are
I don’t know has happen to you
I don’t want this feeling anymore
I wish I could curse you out again
I wish I listen to sleep again
I wish I could hear you rhymes to me
Why does this hurt so much
I wanted you just as much as you wanted me
But I could not show something far away again
I wanted to be close to you
Hold you
Tell you how I felt no longer over the  phone
Be there on the 12th
Kiss and say Happy Anniversary
I wanted so much for you and from you
I did not realize I was pushing you away
It was my fault
It was the pain in my heart that hardened us
I regret this pain so much
I wanted this to our song
Toni Tony Tone -  Anniversary
But now that day will never come
Now I have no clue what future lies for you
I don’t know if your breathing
If the words you have written in your books will placed on CD
If the world will hear so soul speak and change
I don’t know anything
But as I sit and write
Listening to a song that could have been ours
I cry
I cry slightly
For you always told me you wanted to bare my cross
But you wouldn't allow me to bare yours
So as a man you said you were
I left you be
I stayed in my place as a woman
And in this placed I will be
I will be that woman
Strong for the next man that claims me
Worthy to called wife
Worthy to be claimed
All because you gave me your trust
I will never forsaken it with the next
I will keep my values and the lessons you have taught me
As harsh as they might be
I will remain trustworthy
Always…….