Eternal Regret

It took me so long to build my fortune
Sometimes I prayed for something I could contain
And now that I have it….or maybe I should say had it
I had something that was nothing but trouble
I had something that was nothing from the beginning
But I believed that everything was open to be remade
But I am not the one to do such a thing
But in the end I did the opposite
I ruined him and now he is gone
He left me out in the cold where I belong
He did the thing I feared the most
He doesn't speak with me anymore
I have more than done my fair share of dumb things
But the one that trusted me has no announced his hurt towards me
And like a fool I ignored him like all the others
I placed him on the lowest pedestal when it should have been the highest
I pushed him away when he thought it was him
I played this far away game before
Swore to myself I would never do it again
And yet here I go again making the same mistakes again
This is the reason why I am alone
This is why the lonely world I dwell in remains lonely
I have so much to give but sometimes I can not contain
I regret having this large heart
But what man would put up with someone like
Coming and going all day long
I wish there was someone to keep me rooted
Someone to tell me its ok to stop
Don’t move away
Do make one move
But it seems like when I do
The moves are never in the direction that is him
So what can I do
Can you answer me this time…..