Confessions of A Love Killer

The honest moments shared
Not being able to open
To rush the other to utter death
I have killed him
I have destroyed another that has tempted this one
But I wonder so much how others have survived
I have many different answers
From many different people
I have united my reasoning 
And came to too many different options
I have broken him but he has broken me
Gotten further than any man has ever
Not reign as number three
And not close to the shames of my number two
He has conquer so much and does not know it
The ways of me has broken so much
Yet fights to be rebuilt
So what can I do about the shadows that follow me
That stare down at me with judgments of death
On the other he has this hammer
He pounds at me
He rapes the control element that is seized inside me
Craved a whole so very deep that blood flowed from every vital organ
So the control element fought back
It killed the killer that wanted to kill me
It drove him to a point of his control despise
It won hands down
By exchange of information 
The exchange of proclaimed love
The killer that rose as a defense rose to defend me
The one that said other conquer 
The one that said that love is not really a off switch
But is ignited by a flame/torch of the other
Saying you will not go anywhere 
The proof is that I don't want you to go anywhere
I want you to go everywhere and not just with me
So the mind took over
The heart was shield
Never to come out of its holdings
So the same orders that the knights that protected my heart
Do not fight with remorse
At the command of the mind they would die to protect what is precious
So now that the love is shattered
A victory that should seem so sweet
Is bitter and darken over the course of hours
The waking without the talk
The tranquil voice no longer there
The consequence of the battle is now done
Now I have another scar to bare
Another wound that over time knowing may never heal
Only time will tell
Only his tranquility will determine the winner of this war
And the finish of my life
No amount of sorry will ever recover what was said
no amount of love carried conquer will save the dead soul