I have had far love
The first time that the far has come near
Can come near
I have never this before
I have based this on my past
I have seen what far love can do
I am bitter towards it but accept it because I was accepted
I have not drown the line officially
I placed my self in that category once again
I have not made the line thorough enough
I have seek far and wide for a love to consume me once again
And now it is here
Did not run but I did make a barrier
I said to myself long time ago
I will never love far again
I would come closer and love harder
But once again
I have broken my rules
I love from even further
A moving further
But the love can come closer
Can I handle this moving love
Yes…
Can I keep the cards in my hands for a long period time again
Yes…
But this is so limited
To one that hat have mastered this
To me who have lived it and been hurt
We have the same issues
And may even have the same problems
We have found each other on the playing field familiar to me
The same playing field that many others have fell upon
I have handed the keys to my heart to far away loves once before
I have not cheated, or idolized my self
I maintained the role of a wife before being committed
But in the same instance have the falsified love returned
I have never been touched by those who were a far
I have not be tainted by the land of distance memories
I remained virgin to the ways of distance
And I accepted it
I have loved the way that time grow
It made the heart firm and strong
The option to go out and have fun was slim
The option to spend ever waking moment of talk
Revitalized me
I felt the comfort of time spread all over me
But the thing that I was missing was the touch of comfort
I forgave time not giving me the surrounds
I wanted to be greedy with the one that committed me
I wanted to see there face in person everyday
I wanted more to happen along with the temptation of the distance
To harden my heart was impossible
So I thought
I have grown into the distant love
And now that the distance is coming near
It gives me sample and leisure
The little time of comfort in my ways I have accumulated is dreadful
I want the full extent of it all
But how selfish am I for it I leave then the table are turned
If I have take position in place opposite from my love
Did I re-nig on the one who is placed n my shoes
If I ask for someone to wait for me
Did the feelings placed here become vise
Did the same selfish moments that I have here be reversed
Can I honestly say that the brief moments are pure
Can I go again without the touch
Or get it and watch it leave me
Can I see the love of my life walk away from me
Familiar to one unfamiliar to me
Something new
Everything odd to him and even to me
Can I be ok with another on and off relationship
The fears and worries of a wife turned back on like a switch
Can someone who placed themselves in situation handle someone who has actually been
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