Unknown...Midnight Venting 2

I can't sleep so I decide to write
To clear my mind once again of these restless nights
Good morning
Another day, a different pace
Getting closer to my decision crunch date
I miss the one and the talks we have
But the mentality of reality has set in fast
I can't have something so far away
Interfere with the plans I set everyday
But I look back and see there is no mess ups
But losing something so easy just to get a leg up
Maybe there is hope for someone who thinks too much
Thinking the reached cant be reached
Or the touched can't be touched
I can't look back even though I would like to
To understand my actions and the list of things I have to do
I have maintained once before 
But now its a tad bit different
Mind is settling to a new idea of leaving
Drawing conclusions of situation not completed
I have no idea of the way I'm going just yet
But my mind want stability and heart wants genuine accuracy
So I wonder to myself yet again the opinions taken
To lose the one over a mere decision 
Or accept the fact the one has another to comfort 
When I am not near...damn
To shade light in corners where the dark should remain
To break bread once again with a foreign name
So this is my thoughts confusing I must say
But facts remain the same I am going away
To a place only where the strong minded should be
People who will keep me sane should be around me
50/50 only
Not 20/80 or 30/70
I am doing this for me
And not for these weak ass individuals claiming to be my enemies
So be patient with me as I go pass the horizon
Everyday I set the bar
Head held high always risen

Sincerely Yours,

Pure Thoughts