I can not indulge in my past
Endure my past
Tease my past
The past is the past
So why is it hard for me to leave the past alone
Are the lessons that I learned not enough
Do I really need to involve myself in the past and bring into my present
Or should I be aware of the outcomes that the future maybe bring because of my past
I try my best to maintain a future like life
But over time the past comes with words of agitation
Even sometimes remembers me of the things I use to do
Even the things I could never exscape from
But I give myself a way out
A chance to begin again
Even if the consequences seem permanent
I try to over come and move on
But slowly like a future like warning my past says I see you
It gives me signs of wrecking and short comings
It gives the illusion that nothing is without a price
All will be paid in full before success comes
I can only image how to reveal a true path
So how many buts can I say before a honest answer can be determined
How many why typed questions can ride before anything can be given
I am not sure
My road is not fully shown
So I say to my past yes you are a mystery to me
Yes you continue to atonish me every single time
But from Maya Angelou
Still I rise
Sincerely Yours,
Late Reminders
Good morning Alley. I think there's always some part of the past we carry forward. That can be good or bad. The best part of my past that I carry with me now are those days when my daughter was little. The bad things I work to get rid of were those things that shaped me as a young woman. I still fight against it though. It creeps out of the dark places when I'm unaware and brings pain with it. Then I have to decide whether or not I'm going to linger in those memories or beat the shit out of my drums. But running from the past doesn't always help. Sometimes I stare it down, stand up to it challenge it and beat it. But not always.
ReplyDeleteBut today is going to be a good day. It's Saturday and other than doing housework I can do as I please. I'm going to eat, read, listen to music and hang out with my hubby. Have a good one Alley.
That is so true....
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