The Hurtful Him

The feeling I thought was gone is still alive

I don't mind the pain

The constant sight

The way things use to be

It's not easy but time will heal

Heal the hurt placed

Give the mind time to release anger

It's not easy to place blame without reason 

It's not easy to say I not will speak

I won't accept him

But over and over I wish he would see me

Fading to nothing by someone who says nothing

It's not fair to go without words

But this is his choice and my forced decision

I've said constantly I hate you 

And now all I can say is I regret you

Someone who can just walk away without a reason

Say there words are real without proof

So I make my own conclusion 

I must leave the hurt at the door

I must return to the life I once knew

Be able to cry the last tears of heartache

It will get easier 

But I must do this

This burning desire for the truth

This nothingness he left behind

This dark whole that grows everyday he is so damn profound I cant live

I feel like crying over someone that verbally said don't go 

But has not spoken a word since then

Tears fall liked a waterfall 

No one to catch them or to say its ok

No words but a stare 

I feel impaired 

Angry doesn't describe how I'm feeling 

And the tears start to fall

All because of my lust over a fallen angel

Promise not kept 

Nothing to hold or stand behind

He said stay so now I must go

No trust

No life

No love

How cruel but he wouldn't be him if he didn't 

Someone that didn't know he had a jewel

But still window shopped

I'm done..........