Time: 6:10am
"When did all of this start" I thought to myself. I seriously could not sleep. It is 10 past 6 am and my mind would not let me rest. Now I am sitting here in my pajamas, marker in hand and a board in front of me. Its about time I organize this messy week. I want to lay out all of my questions for Mr. Parr and also if my husband decides to make any appearances to have a couple for him as well.
So lets take this all from the top starting with Day one...
Everything started with me. Hell what has not started with me. I encountered Mr. Parr randomly at first but not officially until my cancellation of my 3'o clock meeting. I didn't put much thought into Mr. Mathers and why he left so quickly. I will get someone on that further into the morning. It wasn't until that same day that my husband slash soon to be Ex was not returning my calls. When I told Mr. Parr to google me, I could tell he recognized him. This means he did not know I was his wife due to the last names not being changed or he had a suspicion about him because his wife. I did not want to leave out this hidden mic I found on my tray which again was sent by Mr. Parr. Actually he also interfered partially with Mrs. Waters. And lets not forget the gentlemen he passed me to that night at the Gala. I decided to view the footage from the Gala hoping to see more....
-- Watching Footage--
I tried my best not to cry but a few tears did escape me. As I watched everything from start to finish I noticed a guy next to the pillar. He was holding up a cell phone. As I continued to rewind it back the face became a bit more clearer. It was the same guy Mr. Parr passed me to. Did Mr. Parr know his wife was going to be there with my husband? Wait a minute.....
~~~ Flashback Day 3 at the Gala~~~
"Where did you guys meet?"
"On a business trip"
"Yes, she and I have been happily together for four years now"
"Do you have a number for contacts? We should do lunch"
"My phone actually is broken. I'm getting a new one on Friday. I have to be in Kansas City for a bit..."
"He is always working. And unfortunately I will be in New York City"
~~~Flashback Day 2 in the hotel room read the bio of Mr. Parr~~~
"Mr. Parr is suppose to be in New York City. But why is he in Kansas City"
~~end~~
He had his suspicions about his wife and found out that my husband was going to in Kansas City. If that is the case then he probably thought they were here together. I wonder, how long he knew about their affair? For her to say they were a couple for four years, how long did he really know about her infidelity? Now that I think about it when he looked me up he did not know I would be in Kansas City. Was I really just an alibi in all of this. All of a sudden I started to get pissed. Was I really just a pawn in their little game. Was my husband using me to trick Mr. Parr? Throwing him off so he could spend more time with his wife?
"Bastard" I said out loud and kicking over the board.
(ring, ring....hotel phone)
"Hello" I answered. I tried my best not to sound angry but to no avail.
"Are you ok, Mrs. Deeson" Said Mr. Parr
"Did I disturb you?" I responded not really caring but if he heard that then I guess the other surrounding rooms heard it as well.
"Kinda" he said
"Sorry for the disturbance. It wont happen again" I said. I proceeded to to hand up until he said...
"Since your awake, how about meeting me on the balcony for a second" he suggested. I didn't see any harm in it so I said sure. I hung up the phone. I wrapped one of the hotel robes around me. The air was cool and I did not want to catch a cold at all. This was not the time to get sick. As I opened the balcony doors I could hear him unlocking and opening his. The sun slowly coming up. The sky still filled with bright oranges, reds chasing away the dark blue and purple. It truly was a beautiful sight. I could only image what he could tell me so I put it in mind to keep my responses brief and questions direct. My job now was to just listen.
"Good Morning, Mrs. Deeson."
"Morning"
"No Mr. Parr this time"
"Its too early for formalities don't you agree?"
"I agree...So let's have it. I know you have a tone of questions for me and.."
"How long did you know about your wife's infidelity?"
"Damn! Straight for the jugular I see. Sheesh!"
"You seem to be losing much more than me so I might as well ask since you and I will be in the same boat soon. Isnt that what you told me?"
(sigh) "This is true"
Now that my first question was out, its time for me to just listen to it all....
"For three yrs I guess. When I decided to invest completely into my company the ad visors in the main counsel made me do a full background check listing. Meaning I needed a flawless back ground to succeed as the company head and leader. You can not stomp with the big dawgs and have a dawg life. Understand?"
"I understand" pushing him to continue
"Companies do this as insurance to make sure that no single person(s) can destroy the entire company. Take too much time and money to bounce back from a heavy scandal."
"How does the gentleman you pass me to tie in?" I questioned
"He is the companies security advisor. If anything goes wrong he makes sure the company has enough evidence to defend themselves with. He was the one that found out about my wifes so called business trips. At first they were legit until she started adding days to each trip."
The more I listened the more each action, date, and schedule mimicked my husbands. Even some of the dates that we were together her travels matched. Did he really make our plans surround her schedule so they could be even more together. How stupid I felt thinking my marriage was good. All of my thoughts pertaining to my husband slowly diminished.
"I have to go . We'll continue with this tonight" I could not hear anymore.
"Where are you headed" he said quickly trying to maintain to keep my company.
"I have a client to see today. Hopefully news has not started about my husband's indiscretion. It will be very bad for business."
"I understand... by the pool then?" he asked.
"Yes" I said in a stern and confirming tone.
I could not stomach anymore. Diving into my work was the only thing comforting to me. I might as well enjoy it because who knows how long this will last. As I started to get dressed a call came across my cell. It wasn't a number in my contacts., I had a feeling it was my soon to be Ex husband, so I let it go to voicemail. It was still pretty early so leaving the thought that I may be asleep float in his mind will keep him at bay in his calls. I need to gather myself just a bit more before I confront him. To be really honest I do not think I can handle that argument. No, not right now. All throughout the morning I was very spacious. I was able to make it through my 9'o clock meeting. Surprising it went by with its usual hassles and tussles. The same for my lunch client. Everything seem so regular. I als`o decided to check in with Senior Thomas and west. They ensured me that everything was going fine and they would keep an eye out for any damage coming up amongst the other advisors. After my calls and meetings were done I gathered the tea, and discussed the clients that signed, did not sign, and research on the up coming targets for the next quarter. It seem regular. I was getting hungry so I decided go to the bakery. I asked for my usual and sat down in the backyard garden. My thoughts not that I was alone started to race again. Why would my husband do this to me? Was I that horrible of a wife? Did I neglect him, not loving enough...What was the...
"Hello Monica", A voice overhead said. A voice that I was not ready or wanting to hear so soon.
"Hello?! Is that all you can say to me?" I said trying my best to maintain a single level tone. To no avail did I succeed in that.
"Look, do you have time to talk Monica?" he said
"Not much, say what you need to...wait better yet tell me why you haven't returned any of my messages? When were you going to tell me you was in Baker City and why I had to find out through my team and the papers that was having an affair?"
"I did not want it to come out that way at all. Believe me and..."
"And one more thing. How long were you and that woman together? Since you want to be so bold and parade her around in public."
"Monica, Look I'm so sorry and..."
"Your sorry...SORRY!! Sorry is what just flowed out of your mouth? Are you serious? What was it about our marriage that you on your own decided was just no longer enough? Was it me, my life, work...what?!"
"Monica, Please calm down, just allow me to explain baby"
"Don't baby me" I said loudly
"Is everything ok ma'am" interrupted am off duty officer. He slow came between slightly nudging me to move back. I was thankful that he was there. I was ready to fight.
"Yes sir. I'm fine and just leaving"
"Monica wait please" he said trying to grab for my arm
"Sir please" said the cop stepping further towards him. Blocking his efforts to stop me from walking away.
I couldn't take it. All of the flashbacks in my mind of that night, the words coming out of his mouth there and just now. It was just overwhelming. I tried my best to hold back the tears as I walk through the hotel lobby. As I got closer to the elevator I could feel my eyes beginning to swell and get red. It was almost impossible for me to stop the first from falling. The hurt was too much to bare. The doors open and there stood Mr. Parr. He was the last person I wanted to sere but the only one that was riding this bullshyt roller coaster with me.
"Mrs. Deeson what's wrong? Why are you..."
In the mist of his words I grabbed him. I broke down right in front of him. The tears ran down my face like an uncontrollable broken dam. I could feel his velvet blazer being soaked with my tears. My grip on his coat was getting tighter and tighter. Slowly I felt his arm come closer around me. The more he held me the more I cried. He held me so closely I did not want him to let go of me.
"Mrs. Deeson, let me take you somewhere." he said
All I could do was shake my head and agree to go. He took me to the pool area but further back. We went through another set of doors to the therapy section. I wanted to ask why we were here but I just followed him. I felt as if I had no fight left in me. I watched him start the hot tub and placed two tablets inside.
"Get in Monica". he reached his hand to me. I hesitated just a bit but slowly gave in. I pulled back my hand and started to take my clothes off. He held his hand up and told me to get in with them on. I wanted to ask why but he said don't ask questions and just get in. So I did as I was told and proceeded.
He held his hand back out for me. It was very hot but I didn't care. As I sat down, I watch as he took his shoes off and then his blazer and got in. He sat down right behind me. He pulled me back to him. He held me just as tightly as he did in the elevator.
"You ran into your husband today didn't you?" he asked. I shuck my head yes.
"I think it was about time I tell you everything. I knew my wife was having an affair. Like I said before the security adviser had to run a check on me before joining the company. He found out about my wife's extras trips and longer stays in certain places. He advised me that the only was for me to maintain my position and not get too much backlash was to find her guilt of infidelity. So for three long years he watched her and reported back to me every pain staking detail. Every report given was a nail piercing my heart. It was not up to me until a year that he gave me a name. She was frequently seeing one man. When you told me to google you i had no clue that that man was your husband. I promise you. I told him to create a folder for you of the all of your husbands travels and plans that lined up with my wives. When I invited you to the Gala. I wanted you to know for yourself. I knew I told you that you probably would not have believed me. Also I did not want you alerting my wife just yet that I was on to her. I never wanted this to escalate far or for you to close your job.
"Why did you interfere with my clients?" I asked
"Mr. Mather's Company was going under and my company was the reason. He was going to link up with your company for collateral and I couldn't let that happen. this is still a business you know"
"This is true and what about Mrs. Water?"
"Actually she was my peace offering. I knew you didn't like me especially the way I've been secretive so I passed her to you. It was my was company loss but because of everything that was happening I needed to reassure your company in your capabilities."
"You had that much faith in my that I would float?"
"I could tell that your a fighter and this was something you needed to clear your mind about"
"You're right...Did your security guy also bug my room?"
"I can not say but what i can say is that his methods of finding information can be a bit unorthodox at times" he laughed
"I see"
"How do you feel? Any better?"
"No, but I will be ok"
"I can have him brief you on everything he knows about your husband. My divorce case may start bad but it wont bend bad."
"I would appreciate it but I do not know what my company will do once this fully comes to light"
"If everything goes too far south you can come over to my company. We can use someone with you drive and maybe you can stop looking at me as a competition."
"What fun would that be?" I laughed
"On serious note, I really did not want to include you but for me to succeed and make sure I was safe..."
"I had to fall"
"That not where I was going with that"
"Its fine"
"Are your hands wrinkled yet?"
He searched for my hands underneath the water. Once he found them he felt my finger tips, circling that with his. He started to massage my hands with his and it felt soothing. I can smell the eucalyptus from the tablet he dropped in earlier. My body was completely relaxed. Between his hands massaging me and the swirling of the hot water I could feel myself tranquil. I was slowly getting sleepy and for a brief moment i had to remind myself that He was not my husband. But for this small moment I wish he was. I don't know when it happened but I drifted off to sleep. When I came to we were still in the tub and from his watch on the side panel it was going on 10 o'clock. I looked at him. He looked so peaceful and out of all of this it was staged as the perfect plan. I eased my body off of his and got out of the whirl pool tub. I thanked him with a kiss on the cheek, grabbed a robe from the closet and wrapped it around me. I placed a rob near him and set his watch for 30 minutes. As I walked to the elevator, I thought about everything he said. I do need to be stronger than ever. I may not have had as much time to adjust to my spouses infidelity but I do need to figure my next moves out in this sick twisted chess game. As the elevator finally made it to my floor, the door opens and there stood my husband.
"Where were you? I have been out here waiting for you for hours and..."
"What does that mean to me?" I said snidely.
"Monica please can we talk?"
"Fine but not here"
"Fine then in your room so we can..."
" No...Conference level floor"
"Monica, why there when we are.."
"You wanted to talk right? Then why are you wasting time in asking more questions?"
"Fine and why are you wet?"
"Mind your business. Ill see you in ten minutes"
As I stood outside the conference huge doors all I could think to myself is....How am I going to make it through all of this. My heart was pounding and breaking simultaneously. I could feel the tears starting to form but I put on my work face and grabbed the door handle. I took a deep breath and walked in.
"Lets hear it. Lets hear how you just so happen to meet this woman, how communicating with me no longer was necessary and..."
"It was not you at all Monica. That woman and I did get involved over time. She and I got close but I couldn't leave you"
"How long has this been going on?"
"Monica..please..."
"Dammit how long?" I yelled
"Maybe three years but I.."
"3 years?!! You have been with this woman time and time again for 3 years? Do you know what I have bee doing? Working and coming home to you. But you were working and making a whole other life with another woman while living with me.... what do you expect me to say about this?"
"Monica baby I love you..."
"Love. LOVE! Love would have kept you faithful to me, close to me but you stepped out in a major way. If there was a problem why did you not bring it to me?"
"You were working on the biggest client you've ever had. I wanted to tell you many times but I knew if I had said something it would have ruined everything you had going at your company. I did not want that on my conscious."
"Your saying you kept this affair from me to help me?!"
"Monica baby please..."
"I'm done with this. Have a lawyer by next week. I want a divorces. You and your mistress can have a full life now without any complications. You don't have to hide anymore."
All of the anger that was released from the pool all came crashing back. I had a a splitting headache and standing near my soon to be ex-husband made it so much worse. I stormed out of the conference room and headed straight for the elevator. He tried to stop me but the guilt of his actions couldn't keep me nor stop him from stopping me from walking out those doors. Without thinking I pressed the wrong floor. As the elevator went up i just couldn't contain my tears anymore. The doors open and right in front of me was room 3104. It was extremely late almost close to midnight. But something compelled me to ring the bell. I rand it once hoping he would be asleep. I stood there for a solid minute. i thought to myself that was enough time to signal a person was asleep until....
"Good Morning Mrs. Deeson"
"Um....I thought you would be asleep and I was on the elevator but it took me to the wrong floor and..."
"You've been crying again...why?"
"My husband was waiting for me at my room while I was upstairs with you and umm.."
He came close to me and touched my shoulders. I don't know what made me do it but i latched on to him. I had no fight let in me. At that moment I felt the true feeling of defeat.
"Please come in...Please. What happened if you don't mind me asking?"
"He wanted to explain how your wife and him met. To be honest it was a explanation I did not want to hear."
As I continued to tell Mr. Parr the entire sorted story, he pour ice into two glasses and grabbed a bottle of really old scotch from the bottom of the cabinet.
"I would not have taken you for a scotch man"
"I'm not but under the current circumstances sometimes a drink is sometimes needed"
"I understand"
"Did you talk with your wife?" I inquired
"Yes I did and she was not pleading as your husband but angry because of the how much work I was putting in. Even though she has her own business the distance was getting to her"
"He poured me another drink. The conversation changed to us figuring out what was wrong with the desire to be better and grow. The more we talked we realized that we had similar martial issues. It made us laugh and upset at the same time. From life to work and also how we both view things and get things accomplished. The more we talked the more we drank. Talking with Deshawn was small but calming. We both knew a storm was brewing and need to weather it somehow. It wont be easy saying goodbye to so much time placed inside a marriage. I never thought at all this would happen to me. i never thought i would be a pawn in someone else plot for freedom. I was truly feeling like a victim in all of this.
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