As I came to I slowly realized I was not in my room. I thought to myself of everything that happened. Was it all a dream I thought to myself. I looked at the clock and it said 7:45am Saturday. I have so much to do but this damn headache. Saturdays have always been my busiest day for me and my...husband? Something did not feel right at all so I looked around the room. This is not my room neither is this my bed and...
"Oh my God?!" I whispered to myself mouth covered, "Why am I partially naked and who was..."
I pulled the sheets back and it was Mr. Parr. The more I pulled back the sheets I noticed he was completely naked. Did we really..I mean did I really...Oh dear Lord he really...I gotta get up from this bed. I eased myself out without waking him but then a new issue rose up.
"Where the hell are my clothes??" I whispered to myself
"They are at the cleaners Monica" he responded
"You startled me," I said holding the sheets to my chest, " Where are my clothes, wait I mean why are my clothes at the cleaners and umm...did we...I mean..."
He laughed as he sat up and grabbed his phone. "No Monica we did not have sex although your body is very beautiful."He looked at me seductively. If my skin wasn't so dark I would be bright red from the compliment. "But what you did do was throw up all over yourself and me". He turns his phone showing me pictures of the horrid scene.
"How embarrassing..I'm so sorry. I seriously do not drink at all"
"Trust me it truly showed last night. I was a perfect gentlemen and let you sleep. I may have looked a few times but did not touch"
"Are you being honest with me?"
"Yes I am Monica"
"Really now and you must be really comfortable sleeping fully naked"
"Did you look?"
"No, I didn't look...much" I smiled
"Look Monica, I just want you to know that I..."
There was a knock on the door. If anyone from his company found me here it would not be a good look. I snatched the sheet from the bed and wrapped it fully around me. Mr. Parr stared at me and laughed. I ran towards the bathroom. Right before entering I looked back at him. I watched as he stood up. Great ass I thought to myself. I wanted to stand there longer and watch him turn around but he grabbed the rob that was on the desk chair. Damn a great missed opportunity. I should have looked when he was still asleep. The knock on the door was getting more and more aggressive. I closed the door to the bathroom and looked for a rob. To my luck there was one in the side panel with the towels. I slipped it on and placed my ear to the door. I noticed the sounds from the door was getting louder and louder. I cracked the door open slightly to see what the commotion was all about. It was Mr. Parr's wife. She had papers in her hand and was waving them around furiously. Something tells me he had her served this morning along with her morning tea. By Mr. Parr's actions he was no longer worried about her and neither was I so I walked out the bathroom right behind him and said "Deshawn we going to be late for the final meetings and....oh hi".
As soon as I said that room service brought up my clothes. The timing was too perfect and I couldn't of planned it any better. I took in the clothes, thanked the worker and added the final nail in the coffin..
"I'm going to take a shower before we leave Deshawn" I said seductively. I kissed him on the cheek first them lips. He looked completely perplexed but smiled as I walked back to the bathroom. The look on her face was worth more than money and crazy enough he played right along with me.
"Ill be right there and can you call my security adviser for me. Its under Derek Manner in my phone. Oh the code is 4748," he instructed. The more we continued going back and forth with each other I could tell she wanted to erupt.
"What the hell is this? Why the hell is this..this..this.." she yelled
"She..you mean her. Wait, Monica and I have things to do that does not include you. She understand and actually keeps me motivated to pursue the necessary that is more than I can say about you. If you don't mind my security adviser will explain every thing to you. We literally have nothing to discuss. If we did then we would not be in this place. And I love her especially for what she has contributed to and for me. Goodbye".
And with that the door was closed. I could tell that he was still hurt about the infidelity still.
"A professional to the end."he said to himself
"Like you said vets before rookies. Now about that shower. Care to join me or would you like to go first?"
"I think I'll join you. Thanks for the invite even though this is my room", he laughed.
We spent a good 30-40 minutes in the shower. After everything that had happened this was the final result to this horrible Shakespearean play. Even though Mr. Parr was here only to catch his wife, I on the other hand was here for business. With things coming to a close I needed to reassure my position with in the company. With his help I gained a few good and reliable clients that maintained my status. Mr. Parr and I had lunch together for the first time together and not he usual method of interference. I wanted to make something very clear but also clear somethings up in min about where things were progressing. Even though we were going through the same things, I did not want to seem as if I was only coming to him because of this damsel in distress mess.
"Thanks for meeting me", I extended my hand out to him. He laughed a bit and shuck it.
"You make it sound like I am a client"
"Maybe if you need a place to go you can come to me"
"I doubt that will ever happen. but if the offer is on the table like it was this morning then I'll definitely accept it."
"I'm not sure about that. I think that was a spur of the moment thing."
"It was a great spur of the moment. I hope there will be more of those in the near future"
"Your expecting more of me?"
"I not only expect but also demand. Someone of your caliber is very hard to come by and I do not plan on passing this up. No matter how our situation has linked our fates. But on a different note you wanted to talk business with me. So let me see what the rookie has for her teacher."
"Excuse me?" I laughed. "Such a bold and narcissistic comment"
"Only when I'm faced with something or someone that has interest me. I think I have found that interest. Oh and yes, if the question comes up I'm very interested. If you'll allow me and return the gesture many more times over"
His words to me were very sweet, mysterious and I could do was blush. My smile was short lived when I saw my husband. He knows me all too well and my eating habits. Deshawn noticed my mood change and asked me what was wrong. Before I could say anything he looked around and saw my husband standing in the garden court walk way. He asked me if I wanted to just take our order to go. I shook my head yes. Right when he stood up my husband was standing behind him. I could tell Deshawn was in full protect mode. It was admirable and flattering at the same time. I've never had someone defend me like he is doing now. My marriage was suppose to last but now its over and there was nothing else I wanted to discuss with him.
"Excuse me"
"No, Excuse me"
"Deshawn its alright, please". I could tell he did not want to speak to me at all. But whatever he wants to say needs to come out and be done.
"Ill get the food to go"
"Who is he Monica?"
Don't worry about who I associate with. That individual is not your concern. What are you doing here?"
"I knew you would be here and I just wanted to plead myself to you. I made a horrible mistake and I wanted to seek your forgiveness."
"How dare you ask me anything.", I yelled. I had to maintain some type of decorum since I was outside and around several people. "You want my forgiveness but did not think about it on day one that you and her was together. Now that things are going south you feel remorse. Please tell me how does this work for you"
"I had weak moments and only went to her because of the downsides of our relationship. You are the one I wanted. That's why I always came back home to you. She was a small piece of my life."
"You did that for three long years. When were you going to say that a few times was enough. Better yet when were you going to come to me and tell me the issues you were having? What your not getting is that I was the one you was coming home to but not the one you wanted to fix things with. You maintained, carried thoughts, and did nothing for three years. So how can you stand here and want my forgiveness when for three years you did not want it? Or maybe its now because your caught that you feel some type of way?"
"That's not fair. You act as if your innocent. Like you did nothing wrong."
"I did not cheat. I did not spend time with someone else. I did not keep secrets of my whereabouts from my partner. I was not out claiming someone else as my spouse like it was normal. You did all of those things. All you can blame me for is not being the wife that you wanted but how am I to know these things are going wrong if your not going to tell me."
"I'm not blaming you for everything but you did contribute to the changes in this relationship"
"You found your solution with someones else and not me. Nice way of saying this was the best way for you to resolve this. So without me you decided to move forward with someone else. I'm divorcing you. Now you can have that solution forever and without another argument from me." I saw Deshawn coming back with the food I ordered. I was so tired and my headache was getting worst the more I listened to this nonsense. I stood up and pushed my chair under the table. I could not stay one more second with this man.
"Monica, please we need to discuss how to fix this"
"I think we have done enough talking. You wanted your cake and eat it too right? Now you can but I'm leaving you and not giving this a second thought. Live with your choices. I'm moving on with mine."
"Will you at least come to the house?"
"To get my things? Yes, but you can keep that house. I do not want any more memories of this travesty"
"Please wait Monica..plea..."
"Are you ok baby?"
"No, I just want to leave please. I'm tired of all of this and just..."
"Baby! Who the hell is this guy. I thought he was just another client.
"Technically I am a client but it wasn't up until recently she accepted my recent proposal. I've been trying to merge with Mrs. Deeson for a while"
"What do you mean by merge? So you have been cheating, lying ass woman and.."
"Excuse me, watch your tone. What I mean is a business merger but if it wasn't for you that would not have been possible."
"What the hell are you talking about? what is this about..."
"I'm moving to New York with Mr. Parr to finish pursuing things within the company. I was debating on going since it would mean more time away from you. I did not want to leave because I knew how much time I was spending away but now I have nothing stopping me."
"But that does not account for the baby part"
"Oh that, she really does hate it when I call her that. Vets over rookies is my motto at my company. She will be considered the baby there. Hopefully she can hold her own."
"I handled you this morning, so why not" I said underneath my breath. Deshawn Smirked.
"What was that?" he said angrily.
"She said she handled me this morning just like I handle my wife"
"Your married"
"Thanks to you not anymore and also thanks to you neither is Monica"
"Your...?"
"Bingo, so like Monica said go ahead and live your life with her. I served her divorce papers this morning. Give it a while Monica will serve yours as well so...". I stopped him from talking by kissing him directly on the lips. In my mind I really wanted this all to be over but why not drive another nail in someone else coffin.
"So Deshawn and I can move on from the both of you. Neither one of you wanted us and now you've created a Union no one thought would happen. Out of your deceit came a small bit of happiness. We are both angry at the loss of so much time and effort in our marriages that saw nothing but selfish unappreciated counts. Now enjoy your spoils. I'm in love with someone else. Not because of you but because we both get it and have similar issues in common. I'm willing to work on myself and heal from this. I'm glad I have someone that going through the same thing as me and helping me heal at the same time. I love Deshawn for comforting me where you should have been. there is no comparison and..."
"So he is your rebound from me", he said snidely
"Yes, and I am hers but the funny thing about this. I have no intentions of giving her back. She is now in my court and I play for keeps in everything that I do. You don't have to worry about her anymore. Can we go now, the food is getting cold"
"Yeah, lets go. Good bye. I hope you enjoy the life you've now created for yourself because this life is over." As we walked away I saw my husband sit down and lower his head. I felt so much angry but even more relief. I did not want to fall in that trap of fighting for a marriage that was never going to make it on a honest note. I wont lie to myself, I did want my marriage to work and I even wanted to fight for it but how can I when so much time went on and nothing was said. H ow can a person not talk about problems but expect no consequences in their actions. How long would he have gone and kept this affair going if none of this was discovered. My mind was seriously racing. I could not stop thinking about it all.
"I'm proud of you Monica"
"I don't feel proud or empowered at all"
"I know this wont be easy. Its not easy for me either but I meant what I said."
"What?"
"I want to help you through this. I don't want to leave you at all. As a matter of fact I want to be with you if you'll have me. I know it may seem like I'm rushing into this but you are a great woman to me. I couldn't ask for more."
"Deshawn I don't kno..." and with one full motion he kissed me. I could feel all the convictions in his kiss. The kiss of all kisses. He hugged my body close and so tight. I did not want him to let me go. I engaged him in the parking lot. I did not care who was looking at us. I wanted every bit of him to embrace me fully. He had me completely wide open and it felt safe. I know I should take a step back but for now I don't want to. He continued to kiss me on my neck and it felt so intense. My knees felt so weak from that alone. He picked up me up slightly and pressed my back against my car. Feeling his hands all over me,embracing me was driving my wild. This had to stop before we lose control.
"Deshawn please we have to stop"
"Your right. Maybe I need to think about what I'm doing. Damn, I can seriously get lost in you. "
"That is clear but I was thinking of something else."
"What is that?" he asked with his brow raised.
"We can finish this back in my room". He pulled me close and kissed me again. He agreed to meet me later after my meetings. Watching him drive away felt so hard but I still had business to do. I can not allow anything to stop my work from being successful not even him. As I started my car., my husband knocked on my window. Great I thought to myself. I'm not in the mood for anymore of this. I rolled down my window.
"What do you want now?"
"Monica I just..."
"I have meetings to get to"
"I just wanted you know that I am sorry for blaming you. This was all me and I want you to know that none of this was all about you. I was the selfish one and the one who did not come to you when I felt things were wrong. I get where I went you wrong and just needed you to know that you are a good woman. I'm the fool here. I'll see you back at ho...I mean at the house"
"Ok". that's all I could say. I seriously had no more words for him. I had so many thoughts of running him over but getting that apology was enough to help me make it through. I know not too many women get a I'm sorry after being cheated on but I can see why its needed. I do feel to believe I can move on now. I can let my anger go and truly embrace my next step. I made it back to the hotel. Majority of the meeting were after 5 o'clock so I had time to just relax and think. I decided to text Mr. Parr to see if he was ok. He wanted me to come to his room. I kinda smiled to myself and went up. When I got to the room the door was cracked open. When I opened it I saw Deshawn standing there with no shirt on and two covered trays. "Come In" he said. I could tell things were about to go down and to tell the team that I wont make it to the first or the second meeting. I think I'm ready for whatever is coming up next for me.
"Yes I am Monica"
"Really now and you must be really comfortable sleeping fully naked"
"Did you look?"
"No, I didn't look...much" I smiled
"Look Monica, I just want you to know that I..."
There was a knock on the door. If anyone from his company found me here it would not be a good look. I snatched the sheet from the bed and wrapped it fully around me. Mr. Parr stared at me and laughed. I ran towards the bathroom. Right before entering I looked back at him. I watched as he stood up. Great ass I thought to myself. I wanted to stand there longer and watch him turn around but he grabbed the rob that was on the desk chair. Damn a great missed opportunity. I should have looked when he was still asleep. The knock on the door was getting more and more aggressive. I closed the door to the bathroom and looked for a rob. To my luck there was one in the side panel with the towels. I slipped it on and placed my ear to the door. I noticed the sounds from the door was getting louder and louder. I cracked the door open slightly to see what the commotion was all about. It was Mr. Parr's wife. She had papers in her hand and was waving them around furiously. Something tells me he had her served this morning along with her morning tea. By Mr. Parr's actions he was no longer worried about her and neither was I so I walked out the bathroom right behind him and said "Deshawn we going to be late for the final meetings and....oh hi".
As soon as I said that room service brought up my clothes. The timing was too perfect and I couldn't of planned it any better. I took in the clothes, thanked the worker and added the final nail in the coffin..
"I'm going to take a shower before we leave Deshawn" I said seductively. I kissed him on the cheek first them lips. He looked completely perplexed but smiled as I walked back to the bathroom. The look on her face was worth more than money and crazy enough he played right along with me.
"Ill be right there and can you call my security adviser for me. Its under Derek Manner in my phone. Oh the code is 4748," he instructed. The more we continued going back and forth with each other I could tell she wanted to erupt.
"What the hell is this? Why the hell is this..this..this.." she yelled
"She..you mean her. Wait, Monica and I have things to do that does not include you. She understand and actually keeps me motivated to pursue the necessary that is more than I can say about you. If you don't mind my security adviser will explain every thing to you. We literally have nothing to discuss. If we did then we would not be in this place. And I love her especially for what she has contributed to and for me. Goodbye".
And with that the door was closed. I could tell that he was still hurt about the infidelity still.
"A professional to the end."he said to himself
"Like you said vets before rookies. Now about that shower. Care to join me or would you like to go first?"
"I think I'll join you. Thanks for the invite even though this is my room", he laughed.
We spent a good 30-40 minutes in the shower. After everything that had happened this was the final result to this horrible Shakespearean play. Even though Mr. Parr was here only to catch his wife, I on the other hand was here for business. With things coming to a close I needed to reassure my position with in the company. With his help I gained a few good and reliable clients that maintained my status. Mr. Parr and I had lunch together for the first time together and not he usual method of interference. I wanted to make something very clear but also clear somethings up in min about where things were progressing. Even though we were going through the same things, I did not want to seem as if I was only coming to him because of this damsel in distress mess.
"Thanks for meeting me", I extended my hand out to him. He laughed a bit and shuck it.
"You make it sound like I am a client"
"Maybe if you need a place to go you can come to me"
"I doubt that will ever happen. but if the offer is on the table like it was this morning then I'll definitely accept it."
"I'm not sure about that. I think that was a spur of the moment thing."
"It was a great spur of the moment. I hope there will be more of those in the near future"
"Your expecting more of me?"
"I not only expect but also demand. Someone of your caliber is very hard to come by and I do not plan on passing this up. No matter how our situation has linked our fates. But on a different note you wanted to talk business with me. So let me see what the rookie has for her teacher."
"Excuse me?" I laughed. "Such a bold and narcissistic comment"
"Only when I'm faced with something or someone that has interest me. I think I have found that interest. Oh and yes, if the question comes up I'm very interested. If you'll allow me and return the gesture many more times over"
His words to me were very sweet, mysterious and I could do was blush. My smile was short lived when I saw my husband. He knows me all too well and my eating habits. Deshawn noticed my mood change and asked me what was wrong. Before I could say anything he looked around and saw my husband standing in the garden court walk way. He asked me if I wanted to just take our order to go. I shook my head yes. Right when he stood up my husband was standing behind him. I could tell Deshawn was in full protect mode. It was admirable and flattering at the same time. I've never had someone defend me like he is doing now. My marriage was suppose to last but now its over and there was nothing else I wanted to discuss with him.
"Excuse me"
"No, Excuse me"
"Deshawn its alright, please". I could tell he did not want to speak to me at all. But whatever he wants to say needs to come out and be done.
"Ill get the food to go"
"Who is he Monica?"
Don't worry about who I associate with. That individual is not your concern. What are you doing here?"
"I knew you would be here and I just wanted to plead myself to you. I made a horrible mistake and I wanted to seek your forgiveness."
"How dare you ask me anything.", I yelled. I had to maintain some type of decorum since I was outside and around several people. "You want my forgiveness but did not think about it on day one that you and her was together. Now that things are going south you feel remorse. Please tell me how does this work for you"
"I had weak moments and only went to her because of the downsides of our relationship. You are the one I wanted. That's why I always came back home to you. She was a small piece of my life."
"You did that for three long years. When were you going to say that a few times was enough. Better yet when were you going to come to me and tell me the issues you were having? What your not getting is that I was the one you was coming home to but not the one you wanted to fix things with. You maintained, carried thoughts, and did nothing for three years. So how can you stand here and want my forgiveness when for three years you did not want it? Or maybe its now because your caught that you feel some type of way?"
"That's not fair. You act as if your innocent. Like you did nothing wrong."
"I did not cheat. I did not spend time with someone else. I did not keep secrets of my whereabouts from my partner. I was not out claiming someone else as my spouse like it was normal. You did all of those things. All you can blame me for is not being the wife that you wanted but how am I to know these things are going wrong if your not going to tell me."
"I'm not blaming you for everything but you did contribute to the changes in this relationship"
"You found your solution with someones else and not me. Nice way of saying this was the best way for you to resolve this. So without me you decided to move forward with someone else. I'm divorcing you. Now you can have that solution forever and without another argument from me." I saw Deshawn coming back with the food I ordered. I was so tired and my headache was getting worst the more I listened to this nonsense. I stood up and pushed my chair under the table. I could not stay one more second with this man.
"Monica, please we need to discuss how to fix this"
"I think we have done enough talking. You wanted your cake and eat it too right? Now you can but I'm leaving you and not giving this a second thought. Live with your choices. I'm moving on with mine."
"Will you at least come to the house?"
"To get my things? Yes, but you can keep that house. I do not want any more memories of this travesty"
"Please wait Monica..plea..."
"Are you ok baby?"
"No, I just want to leave please. I'm tired of all of this and just..."
"Baby! Who the hell is this guy. I thought he was just another client.
"Technically I am a client but it wasn't up until recently she accepted my recent proposal. I've been trying to merge with Mrs. Deeson for a while"
"What do you mean by merge? So you have been cheating, lying ass woman and.."
"Excuse me, watch your tone. What I mean is a business merger but if it wasn't for you that would not have been possible."
"What the hell are you talking about? what is this about..."
"I'm moving to New York with Mr. Parr to finish pursuing things within the company. I was debating on going since it would mean more time away from you. I did not want to leave because I knew how much time I was spending away but now I have nothing stopping me."
"But that does not account for the baby part"
"Oh that, she really does hate it when I call her that. Vets over rookies is my motto at my company. She will be considered the baby there. Hopefully she can hold her own."
"I handled you this morning, so why not" I said underneath my breath. Deshawn Smirked.
"What was that?" he said angrily.
"She said she handled me this morning just like I handle my wife"
"Your married"
"Thanks to you not anymore and also thanks to you neither is Monica"
"Your...?"
"Bingo, so like Monica said go ahead and live your life with her. I served her divorce papers this morning. Give it a while Monica will serve yours as well so...". I stopped him from talking by kissing him directly on the lips. In my mind I really wanted this all to be over but why not drive another nail in someone else coffin.
"So Deshawn and I can move on from the both of you. Neither one of you wanted us and now you've created a Union no one thought would happen. Out of your deceit came a small bit of happiness. We are both angry at the loss of so much time and effort in our marriages that saw nothing but selfish unappreciated counts. Now enjoy your spoils. I'm in love with someone else. Not because of you but because we both get it and have similar issues in common. I'm willing to work on myself and heal from this. I'm glad I have someone that going through the same thing as me and helping me heal at the same time. I love Deshawn for comforting me where you should have been. there is no comparison and..."
"So he is your rebound from me", he said snidely
"Yes, and I am hers but the funny thing about this. I have no intentions of giving her back. She is now in my court and I play for keeps in everything that I do. You don't have to worry about her anymore. Can we go now, the food is getting cold"
"Yeah, lets go. Good bye. I hope you enjoy the life you've now created for yourself because this life is over." As we walked away I saw my husband sit down and lower his head. I felt so much angry but even more relief. I did not want to fall in that trap of fighting for a marriage that was never going to make it on a honest note. I wont lie to myself, I did want my marriage to work and I even wanted to fight for it but how can I when so much time went on and nothing was said. H ow can a person not talk about problems but expect no consequences in their actions. How long would he have gone and kept this affair going if none of this was discovered. My mind was seriously racing. I could not stop thinking about it all.
"I'm proud of you Monica"
"I don't feel proud or empowered at all"
"I know this wont be easy. Its not easy for me either but I meant what I said."
"What?"
"I want to help you through this. I don't want to leave you at all. As a matter of fact I want to be with you if you'll have me. I know it may seem like I'm rushing into this but you are a great woman to me. I couldn't ask for more."
"Deshawn I don't kno..." and with one full motion he kissed me. I could feel all the convictions in his kiss. The kiss of all kisses. He hugged my body close and so tight. I did not want him to let me go. I engaged him in the parking lot. I did not care who was looking at us. I wanted every bit of him to embrace me fully. He had me completely wide open and it felt safe. I know I should take a step back but for now I don't want to. He continued to kiss me on my neck and it felt so intense. My knees felt so weak from that alone. He picked up me up slightly and pressed my back against my car. Feeling his hands all over me,embracing me was driving my wild. This had to stop before we lose control.
"Deshawn please we have to stop"
"Your right. Maybe I need to think about what I'm doing. Damn, I can seriously get lost in you. "
"That is clear but I was thinking of something else."
"What is that?" he asked with his brow raised.
"We can finish this back in my room". He pulled me close and kissed me again. He agreed to meet me later after my meetings. Watching him drive away felt so hard but I still had business to do. I can not allow anything to stop my work from being successful not even him. As I started my car., my husband knocked on my window. Great I thought to myself. I'm not in the mood for anymore of this. I rolled down my window.
"What do you want now?"
"Monica I just..."
"I have meetings to get to"
"I just wanted you know that I am sorry for blaming you. This was all me and I want you to know that none of this was all about you. I was the selfish one and the one who did not come to you when I felt things were wrong. I get where I went you wrong and just needed you to know that you are a good woman. I'm the fool here. I'll see you back at ho...I mean at the house"
"Ok". that's all I could say. I seriously had no more words for him. I had so many thoughts of running him over but getting that apology was enough to help me make it through. I know not too many women get a I'm sorry after being cheated on but I can see why its needed. I do feel to believe I can move on now. I can let my anger go and truly embrace my next step. I made it back to the hotel. Majority of the meeting were after 5 o'clock so I had time to just relax and think. I decided to text Mr. Parr to see if he was ok. He wanted me to come to his room. I kinda smiled to myself and went up. When I got to the room the door was cracked open. When I opened it I saw Deshawn standing there with no shirt on and two covered trays. "Come In" he said. I could tell things were about to go down and to tell the team that I wont make it to the first or the second meeting. I think I'm ready for whatever is coming up next for me.
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