My Bitter Confession/Recovery

My bitter heart has open

So dark and lifeless

Tears that burn my eyes like acid

Pouring nothing but pain

Clouded by the could have beens

And know I think about him...the one that's away

And the force workings of the one next to me

This is so painful

Seeing nothing but a dark cloud cover my bright light

Tearing up with no reasons to stop

Waiting for the bitter aftermath to pass

But the shining of my past is beaming

I can't stop the reaction being created 

It's hurts to the core

To know I was a fool for a while

What I had gave

What was given

Now I see it's no longer wanted

Someone who is waiting for me

But as I sit and think how my heart is waiting for another

But now I can break what's left of the love

Drowning in sorrow

Painful emotion

Devastated by the horror film of my life

Seeing the roles played by so few

How the love scene never last long

Emotional roller coaster

Can't get off

Bought too many tickets

Taken too many trips

But these tears won't start

And yet they are knocking at my lids door

And the salt waves wants to preceding

But the horror movie isn't a love story

Is filled with the monsters of the past

The demons of the present

And now that there is one has stepped up

He has to know about the love killing children

Heart attack coming stong

Holding my chest with full force

But the tears won't fall

I can't help the stinging I feel brewing around my pupil 

Can't stop sniffing

I'm sorry for the waterfall 

I hate the pattern I've reached in life

So much to deal with but no one to share my pains

No one to hold my tears back

No one to say you can let them fall

Guarded territory only he can break

This is my way of paying for the dirty deeds made

Something to think about before future love children are made

Dying of a broken heart

And now I'm dying of a broken soul

But he said he would heal me

Take the role of Yah and rejuvenate me

This is what he wants for me 

So I must make it over this obstacle

This is not the last of my grave

I dug real deep

So I must pay for every feet

With my ownhands 

I must release all my sorrow

I can't wait til tomorrow

But at midnight let the new begin

Someone that is no longer broken