Choices...Ground Breaker

I quit

This mixed emotions of love and corruption

You cheated I forgave

I cheated and now I'm going thru 16 phases

I'm a diamond cut very roughly

But every time you come to me

I feel I'm cutting you deeply

I am not perfect

I am not this Susie home maker slash creator 

I have been thru fires and weathered storms

Half the damn time I'm never alone

I have rocked many boats

Damn I've even fallen

But in my life's history I've risen

Stood in front of the most powerful

Stood on side of many who consider themselves equal

And stood behind some that were weak

But now I got you

The same cut as me

But still you don't understand I can cut deeper

I do not live in the land of regret

I can walk away and live with my choices

Keeping the memories of my failures but never dwell

Seeing nothing but the truth of my life

Killing every feeling

Seriously going numb but never dumb at heart

I pretend with nothing

So if by any chance I lose you 

Here are the phrases that will cross my brain

"I am strong still"

"I have gone years without this lost love"

"I have weathered to damn much to allow this one thing"

"This one thing is not the end of me 2007"

I am a demon born and raised by the devil

I know how to make it in the pits of hell

Hell I lit a few fires of my own

But never will I be broken by a broken love

My hands are dirty

My heart never cold

My words may steal souls

But I still maintain my inner girl

At the end of my day I come first 

Everything else is predetermined and discovering worth

In life I have a thirst

May he come around or may he flee

This is my life

Accept me or get out of my way

Final choices