What My Teacher Taught Me

I have done so much to be with him

Made decisions to accommodate us

To make sure seeing me was frequent

Making sure that we would not be apart for long

But we don't communicate long

We dont open up long enough to try

Even though the impression is there

I can't see it

And your not showing it

It's difficult for me to remain

When the love and affection I yearn for is faded

I wont feel jaded 

But I do feel hurt

Ive put in so much work

But no one to discuss the accomplishment with

No one to say its good or bad

No one to commit myself to

No one to hold even for a brief moment

Its the little things

I fell hard for

Long before the big things had time to rise

Long before our first big argument

Long before time space appart

Long before the chance to reconcile 

Long before the incredible make up sex

The little things

The little memories I used to keep

But now they have faded in space between us

Now they have crawled away like a child

We have burned our bridge long before crossing

Couldn't see in the tunnel without light

So the passion we had is gone

The fight to stay has subsided

The reasons to smile and yearn for your touch 

The wait to see you after so many days

The tear I shed was the last piece of emotion

You were no where near to catch

Being justified

Being analogically correct 

Being open has been proven to be nothing

And all I have learned is to remain silent 

Be silent when love comes

Be silent when a touch is felt

Be silent when a conversation has started

Have a look that screams to be voiced

Be silent when your heart is breaking

Be silent when your hungry for it 

This is what I was taught by him

Only speak when you have to 

Only touch when it is allowed

Don't be bold and carry feelings

Cause you don't know if the same affection will be shown 

All this negativity has drained my positivity

Swallowed me like a deep dark black hole 

But all of this can change

All of this can go away

Two options

1.) remain silent until my last day

Or 

2.) speak and let yourself be heard

But what are the chances that option two will be used

So in my lesson I have learned 

Love is not silent

You can not love everyone

Do not give up everything 

Don't do everything and put your whole heart in it

But don't harden your heart

This is just another test 

More will come

But not everyone is ready for the final results

Lesson Learned