All Because of You...Pain

It hurts me deep we couldn't speak

The time that went by you save yourself

You made selfish decisions that only included you

But now you thought the time for me was now

The facts was there and you held it

Maintained your world order

Then you said now you

Seeing me was enough I guess to heal you

But in me leaving you made constitutions 

You wrote rules that applied to you alone

You left me by the waste side hoping I would float

Long enough to wait for you SOS

You gave your heart time to heal 

And thought I was healing along with you 

How naive is this situation you created

How hopeless did you make me

But asked me twice did you miss me

You want to maintain your reality 

But didn't give a damn about how it hurt me

Took care of yourself with the best Medicine

But fed me the wrong prescription 

How does it feel to have something missing

Something you actually wanted to keep

But let time play its game

Now your short one life line

Missing a piece of comfort

Lost without the vital Love and Affection

My pain came from you

Now you know parts of the truth 

How I was close to saying I love you

I no longer hate you 

But the pain is here

Clear as water

Heavy as a ton

I guess without me you continue on with your fun

Memories is all we have

And that's all it is.....Memories

I hate you officially

And now it does matter

Rainy Days.....Sun's Declaration

I feel the rain

The water thats running down the sides of my arm and back

He water that is forcing reality down my throat

To my bones it tries to soak

But to the common placed reality it has no flow

It's a joke

I give so much in the presence and absence

I'm bein used yet again

But I invite

Giving away the talents which should be enjoyed in union

No one again to call my own

Got others wanting the use to be

The great drench in memory

I can keep living off the false hope of satisfaction

My body knows to much truth

To continue to let these lies in

I carry pain in my heart

I keep death sometimes in my soul 

And no one wants to ask me why

But ask for the gates of heaven to be open when requested

It's sad when I can't phone a friend

To find out I gain a enemy

Nameless in a cause

And soon wants me to pause and be acknowledged

I can't continue on in a life like this

Slaving away in no appreciation

Something I swear I don't ask for 

But in my work I pray get what is deserved

Is it now time for me to say no to the ppl of my life

Is it now the personal reasons why I can't sleep

Why my body is no longer mentally feed 

Is this the reason why I am so weak

Can't listen to the man of God preach

Cause my mind is clouded and running so deep 

Can't breathe at the moment so I pause

Waiting for an answer to slap me across my jaw

Can't open a door that remains lock to greater heights 

Keep asking the same questions

Keep fighting the same fight 

To many obstacles

To many inner demons

I have so much to live for

But so many have killed what I have gained

It's time to cut the bullshyt out

Stop saying ill reclaim it

Stop saying ill get to it

Stop saying soon it will happen

As the rain falls out side my window

The rain is also falling on my pillow

As I see it

It's the same inside

But it never ends

The sun has forgotten to come out and shine

It's lost it's memory on drying the land

It looks at the water and feels intimidated 

And says ill come up with a new strategy 

But falls back behind the clouds

Praying for a new opportunity

Doesn't hear the prayers that goes to it

Cause it's worried will it fail

I understand great sun

We have much work to do

So with one issues at a time

We must come from behind our covers and shine

We must have steady hearts and firm hands 

We must be stronger for the land

Cause if we don't it will remain dark

And the rain will never end

I'm tired of new beginnings

It's time to fix this one

This moment

This life

Enough

How do you know when enough is enough

It's happens when all hope for right is gone

It happens when the path of weakness is now profound 

It even happens when a strike is made

And the world still doesn't understand the place that is held

Growing up in a house that sees nothing but hate

Enough

Seeing parents fight without cause or reason 

Enough

Trying so hard to make plans but obstacles are steadily growing

Enough 

This is some to so many that says enough is enough 

So why don't ppl understand its meaning

Why push to great lengths and boundaries 

All because they can

And do not care about the consequences 

So when is enough enough

Action speaks louder than words

Positive and negative 

Only with action can you say enough is enough