Not Tonight...Reclaiming Me

He has told me for the last time

I wanted it more than ever

Especially now that my time was over

So I'll try again....

Him:Not tonight...

That's the finally straw

Next Day....(out with friends):

Girlfriend: Here is my advice...its either you cheat or....

Me: Or?

Girlfriend: Reclaim your pussy....

Later that night:

The sound of my friend's advice rings deep within my mind

To reclaim something

To take back something so readily available

I have not attended to myself

Waiting for my partner to intro me

To have him ignite me when he pleases

Now I home alone

Nothing to do but dwell in my frustration

So why not dwell into my hunger pains

Why not take a step back

Lay back

Enjoy the personal side of me

Have the power to encourage my own ignition

How different could it

Something I said I would never do

But desperate times calls for desperate measures

Besides my body saying that it needs this

So why not give it what it wants

Tomorrow...LOL

Next Night...:

Not Tonight....

I am going to do it

But how do I do this

So I leaned back and explored my outer being first

See what he use to see

Understand the ways of my call

The screams that comes over

Now I intro myself

I wait for this feeling which comes quickly

I feel my body relaxing

Flexing my muscles I have never really flexed before

I can feel a tight sensation come over me

.............

This is what it must feel like for him

Now I can feel this way for myself

The craving new sensation is powerful and addictive

The motion is increasing

I can feel something building

My body is feeling empowered

I feel a greater signal pressing against the back of my spine

I can not hold back

...........................

He always told that it was all in my right leg

But now that I have reclaimed and explored

It all in my left

No more waiting on my lighter

I can create my own fire

The Night After That:

Him: Baby...baby?

Me: Yea bay..

Him: Come here......

Me: Not tonight (smile)