Having the opportunity that I have
To bare witness to others when I still in my hole
Can I share what I have been thru with a lover
Or am I waiting for the one I can call my beloved
The word that is use countless in the bible
With such definition I am only in a pause
I can only say to the one that is for me is......yes
I see myself with the man of love and stability
But I am also surrounded by the sex of wearing thin pains
I can honestly say I have cheated my body and treated it less
I can break down to a lover of my past
But to look to my future I wonder was it fair
So I pray not a prayer for companionship but a prayer of time
A prayer of patience
And mainly a prayer of compassion
I can be counted on but who can I count on when I am in need
A service that is in constant repair
So I say time is always on my side
I am tired of waiting but slowly see why I wait
Why the mere man of today has not interest me
Why the one own by another is intriguing to me
I understand why I am always lusting but not loving
Or even the one being loved
I wait because I have learned that speed is not the answer
That those who have someone constantly search and have found me
And when the lessons is over I move on
Forgetting the past lovers, past lust
Combine my findings
Discover the true lover suited for me
So now that my research is compiled
I have open my heart to the worlds new lessons
I have moved to places to give myself a time of study
So now that I have to return back to the area of learning
I can say...no
I am a powerful, strong woman
My weaknesses perfected
I can now hold out longer
And also hold on stronger
Sincerely Yours,
Improved Woman
Through reading your poetry I know that you have been hurt badly and that the hurting was not a trivial thing. The young woman of today has a much more treacherous road to travel than the women of my generation did. We were able to hold men to a higher standard of behavior, demand their respect and get it. Doing that today is looked down on by society. That's a problem your generation and my daughters generation will have to fix. And I don't know how you girls will accomplish it. A womans soul can starve without a lover who is also a companion. I hope that you find your right man Alley.
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