Losing Me

Anger is what I feel
Nothing in this world could cover the pain I feel
The missing in action
No love or attention
The power I feel in the presence of none is draining
Death come to the word love
Sin is profound and direct
Below everything the moon and stars
None could rectify the shame this one has brought me
Over the hills
Seen so far
Broken without a shadow of a doubt
It hurts as I pour my sorrow out
Tears drown my face with no one to catch them
Making a river to a endless found ocean
I'm broken with out another to pick up the pieces
To face this type pain is killin my soul and inspiration
Help, help.....im drowning in sorrow
Too much of this I'm afraid for tomorrow

Sincerely Yours,

Help

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I have writers block. A lot has been going on and for a while things have not made since. And all I can say is AAAAAAAAAA
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This is how I feel right now. You know what  really need. I need to get laid for inspiration. Yeah...lol

He Is......

He is

The open window allowing the breeze to flow within

The pleasure of time ageless and discrete

The powerful hand that hold compassion & strength

He is who he is

His mama raised him to be strong

Father raised him to be a leader

I love him as compassionately as I can

He loves me like a man should

In his embrace time stands still

Waking up to his scent not by the sun

Sends shots to my heart like a gun

The passion his hands feel across my skin

Lighting burst from within

Gripping him tightly with a strong hold

He whispered things in my ear

Things that was never told

Gliding on air almost breath taking

He does my body right no room for faking

All my walls he has broking

The guard is down

I am now his for the taking

This is the making of a beautiful relationship

One I'll be ready to commit

Sincerely Yours,

Love

L-O-V-E for Granted

Have love ever been taken for granted? Have you ever used it and didnt mean it? Have you ever take in it in to consideration only to regret the outcome? What are the most important things that made you say I love you? Have you ever tried to open your heart after saying a false I love you? Have you told the truth about the false I love you only to tell and truthful one? These question plus many more have to do with love and how we use it to get what we want or to jus keep our partners under raps. But what a bout the I love you that mean the world to but was rejected. Is that where we get stalkers from and killer who believe in loving one and none other. What about those? Is this to much foe anyone to explain? But what if. The word if is put in to the line I love you. So from now on when someone thin they should say or using it falsely the should say if I love you. I know it sound crazy even stupid but think about it. People say I love you so many time its hard to say if they are tell thing the truth or not. So if the say it then the word if would pop up in the mind of the person it was being told to. You can say I love you all you what to but if that word is not meant with a wholehearted sense then the meaning no more then a word said in the mist it came from. But how about the love that last all the test of time and goes from the 1st yr anniversary and make it to the 50^th year anniversary. Is the a possibility that the love that last that long was meant to be with a hardship of knowing everything that hat has happen. But I wish people would jus let it flow and understand that this happen for a reason. It is not a word to be used lightly and not to be under construction. But if you us it for a stupid reason or for personal again the then u will not be successful. This is all Im going to say about the matter but if u dont get it then you will be without love.

Sincerely Yours,

Age 15

Dealings

Deals are not always made with good intention. Things happen too soon when deals are made. I have made deals. Some I am not proud of and others I wish I didnt make. But in the end I get the end of the battle and left with the clean-up. Time has given its self a personal trial but why is it easy to make a deal but hard to break it for truthful reasons. I have come through many different trials and made ideas that seem like they were not worth it but then there are others that make through and see the light a lot better then before. I wonder from time after time is there places to those who make wrong decisions and places for people who add and cant stop adding. But I feel if the deal is done then let it be. But those that have deals and have consequences at the end of them are in a world of debt and a world of hurt. But it must be usual to see what happen and realize that it happen because u decided it should happen that way. But see this I can testify for myself that some deals should jus be left alone. Even those that are years old. But then I have to think if u should just go with the flow of your deal or decision. What if the decision take a little to much or does a great deal of damage then what it was suppose to. If the deal went bad. What would it cost you and how would u pay for it. wouldnt be obvious to see the outcome of others then letting others see the show of your outcome. Even having the thought of being wrong and it has a chance to bite back. I see if then people that make the deals would double check there on outcome future then they would know whats coming up in the end. I can say what people should do all day and basically all night but in the final result of knowing what goes on, decision are better left alone. Power is one and greed is another but u would never realize that love and passion and even desire was more to then list. Seeing what people are doing make you wonder if u have a decision at all. Would it be possible to be wrong long before the deal or decision was even made. That would be crazy or would it. If it was crazy then why do we continue to make theses decision if we are not ready for the outcome. I dont understand or maybe I understand and its jus been done over and over again. But now I must say that I have said to much on this subject alone. My reason be that even though we make decision day in and day out we can help the fact that will shall stumble. All shall fall short. So where do u reside.

Sincerely Yours,

Age 15

Deep Feelings

It has happen to many of us. When you feel as if life has a plan of its own and no longer listens to reason of dreams and past or future destiny. It has come to even place the title of mistakes to a wrong category meant for failure. But how can we justify the concept of a broke morality and go back to the path of comfort and peace of mind. But in the lining of this concept we put ourselves down and make ourselves worry on parts that differ from original plans. We refuse to see what we need a look towards the things we want but is that a crime to us or others. We put our lives in the hands of those we trust and few a small part as a great accomplishment but then after a taste of victory become sweet to the tip it turns sour going down and becomes very bitter. We place so much faith it makes you wonder if there is too much faith put in. and also wonder if that faith turned into bad faith. Many others who feel that God has put them on a path to great success and then in the last step to get to the end of a long hard journey you thrown back as if the work was not worth it. Or as if the path and wonder why God has did this to you or me. Time after time we blame God or even the devil why we are in these predicaments. But it becomes obvious and also a just rain that has come to past. But then what if the rain comes to stay and doesn't go away. It stays and creates an unjust monsoon over a few days, weeks, or months. God forbid if it last for years then the faith that was almost there will not last at all. God will become a second memory until something bad happens and you wonder sense you let God go then what is the problem. Things become complicated and things become sort of wrong until the long time you forgot how to pray and even say Gods name. But things become clear like a new made sunrise. Things happen for a reason. Sometimes there are not explained or even known until the last minute but we have to keep the faith in what we do and faith in our God that he will provide

Sincerely Yours,

The Test of Love

Time after time, Love has been tested and over run by simple minded people thinking if the cost of love is mention of surrendering. Maybe that is why people cant see that there are more to a person then outward beauty. Love can be placed in many different actions or emotions. The love to comfort, contain passion, to show passion, to committed. We test our hearts in order to correct our lives from any mistakes. We give our heart an opportunity to open and breathe from the closer that once were. Time and belief is simple but difficult matter because we have different minds and orders. The word infatuation can no longer be played in the wrights of love because you would surpass it with the one that you love. From this point on the test of love is a lie. There is no test show the one you love that you love them. And there is no descent way to make sure the one you love, loves you in return. It is easy and hard but in my case I will speak and show after. You can have all the sex you want but if is not natural, personal, gentle, consensual, longing, or even trust worthy by heart then it will not pass the heart needs. Being the best in bed can be told to any one but if the best is all you want then the best is not a form of love. But if you say to that person I love you and show not only by touching then the word love will be fully explained in an even deeper manner. Judging is when you do and don't understand but in the case of love judging has many different rules. You first judge yourself. By doing this you have given yourself the forgiveness and also the place to love. I call this stage one of judgment. Second, you must judge your life. This doesn't mean if your life was down right bullshit keep it away from your lover. It only means that you have a lot more to say and you should let it, all of it, out and never let it stay in. Your lover is there to comfort you when you have problems. That rule is not left to wives anymore. Those have been placed with mothers and grandmothers a long time ago. Then came me. I have the knowledge of a mothers love and soul through cooking, and the tender love of a grandmother who always love her baby. But now that I have turned my rightful age I have surpassed all optical and conquered all hate. I am what ever that is in front or behind, side to side. I'm different in my way and to figure me out is the accomplishment any one can achieve. Third, judge your heart. If you cant give your heart then how do you expect to give it to someone you love. And lastly, judge your lover. All in all this is the most important. You have to understand your lover. She/he will be able to keep you in your right mind and give you that reassurance that you need. So keep in mind judging is not everything but everything pertaining to your life is. So choose wisely and the best that you can. It will all be yours in due time. So many people takes love for granted and them in the long run blame their lovers or themselves. No one was created to hurt or be emotionally distort. We are here to love one another and share our hope and dreams. But if we do not show what is on minds as well as our hearts then we will be dishonoring ourselves as well as those around us. My advice just love don't discover, then discover and love some more.

Sincerely Yours,

Age 15

Mystery Figure

It was a rainy summer day, where the evaporation from the ground was relived and the plants begging for thrust. I was sitting at home reading a old child hood book called The nutcracker, when a sudden shadow caught the corner of my eye. It was filled with memories. Happy ones, sad ones and shameful ones. As much as the shadow stayed in its place I had more and flash back consuming my mind until a sudden shock of my book hitting the floor snapped me back in to the present. Now turning to fully see the figure it was gone. It was gone as if it had a mission to encounter me with vision on visions. Or as to torment me for past mistake that then were not taken care of. It was strange. I thought I knew that figure but still nothing came to mind. How I wished I knew who or what it was or do I wish what that whatever it was would just leave me be. Like a grim reaper coming for your soul and taking the lonely path, seeing all you have done , not only to yourself but also to others. How uncomfortable. The thing that occurred that rainy summer day would be the only thing haunting me now. I say again , how uncomfortable. Breathing. To breathe. To counteract feelings and to project them as simple figure of just and love. Oh, by the way. What is love. Only simple fact of surrendering a mere portion of character. This bitter concept can only be presented to a edge breaker or even a home wrecking ball. Distant memories. What foolishness and a pale way of introducing a fear into the lives of the brave. Can someone explain the bordering concept of love and passion or the thin line between infatuation and love. This is troublesome discussion for psychopath or even a normal, sane, individual. All theses subjects yet to known, are here to be answered. But what poor soul would dare to unravel this uneasy measure. Will it be a scientist who continues to think that this can be explained by science or a major who thinks it is a new form of weapon to break a non- participants will in getting the truth. What foolish things to say. It cant be explained so easily or even broken between fine lines. What idiots to think such a way or is it just me. I am the one writing what I think. Am I that scientist or that major with thoughts of basic confusion. Is it me. Someone with to much on the brain. Oh, how I dread seeing that figure, placing all these profound thoughts within my head. The only way to take these memories and the figure out is to harden what has been soften. It is the only to present myself to a fine tooth comb once more. This a different stage in life. This must be taken care of. No more thoughts and no more memories. I t must stop now. Right now. How dare that figure come to see and not speak. It is a figure that surely presents a problem and how I wish it had never come. But it did nevertheless. It came as stupid making smart. What dishonor. Dishonor.

Sincerely Yours,

Age 15

Kiss Temptation: The Night of True Desire

As he followed me back down stairs
I wondered to myself if could I open up to him
He is willing to open up to me
Introduce someone into our every other day fantasy
So I revealed to him that I was ready
I was able to submit to him in every way possible
So I did what any woman in heat would do
I did the thing I loved to do
I fell to my knees
He stared at me
He placed his hands on my chin
Raised it slightly
To let me know that he has accepted me
I enjoyed the thing that pleased me
That over joyed my body
My mouth was watering with hunger
To have the release of my lover
I was into him so much I couldn't stop
I wanted to engorge myself into him
I wanted evey bit of his essence
So I drived his body into immence pleasure
He came to me over and again
He was limp for a second and returned again
I felt like we were in competition
I held him like his energy was depleting
Guided him to the floor as I rose to my feet
I felt strong, full and mighty
Then he did something that made me submit to him before
He open his mouth, opened my legs and ask could I have some more
I wasn't expecting to get it in return
This was my thanks something that I yearn
Without my consent he pulled my down
In mere seconds he went to town
My mind raced with his tongue speed action
I couldn't think
I couldn't stop my legs reactions
I thought I had him but now he had me
69 I asked and he then obeyed me
Now we were going head to head
This was the way I hope it would be
Until I felt another set hands on me
She came down from her coma like sleep
Now she came down hornier and ready
So now the venue change is hers
Sweat running down our bodies like diamonds and pearls
We change the setting movng to another peek
Where to next..........just wait and see

Sincerely Yours

Act V

His Way of Reconciliation

What can I say
This one that carries no feeling for me
He shows only what is need but not what is on subject
I say I'm sorry in his name
I can't pretend that he does little
I can't pretend that he does much at all
The eyes have seen so much damage
The heart can't heal
The body has been stress for so long
It dies with every lack of his emotion
Things are given money and orders
But the love that is needed is never shown
How painful to see the body fade
But he can not show much
The ways he has granted is not full
His heart has lost its meaning
Pouring out handouts as a secondary love
Nothing to receive back but another empty hand
Only to measure it by the size of the wallet
Nothing is easier than giving money
A way of saying that he is needed
Not saying no but open to nothing beyond the bank
This is his form of love
Nothing to receive in return
No gifts on birthdays
No gifts on holidays
They come and go like the wind
His emotions doesn't form like unwatered clay
A potter would not purchase such undetermined product
To result in worthless finish
Something that not even gloss of pledge could ever furnish
So what can I say about his way
Thank you.......with no emotion or eye contact

Sincerely Yours,

Failed Love

That Name

I'm angry all over again

To a man that has not cater to his child

A barer of bad news

To strikes of a belt

There is no words to describe this pain

To rest the head on a cold shoulder

To be unified only by DNA

The blood that courses through these veins

Wishes the results were false or under another name

How can a name be used

To only be worthless and abused

Its not right to use that name

What name?.....Father, Daddy

This is the name that means so much

But the shallow one that uses it blaspheme by touch

How dare you use that name

When your hand revel in hurt and blood stains

You say I'm your child like a trophy

The world owes you because of me

The life you brought into the world

You said it was paid for like a slave that wears shackled pearls

In this word I tell you nothing

But in reply you say you must respect me

How can a man with no common demeanor

Ask his children to say I love you a little more cleaner

The stains left behind scared the beginning

The amount of forgiveness still left unfinished

Father...used even for the most high

Downgraded to a man with a fallen crown

Others have stood in that name's place

To wait for the original to make a way

That time has past

The rest have moved on

The name is no longer used

Now it is slowly earned

15 years a woman has played that name

Raised the children, took over the fame

So now what can I say about that name

All I can say, there was another

The name Father was replaced with Mother

Sincerely Yours,

Grown Child's Interpretation

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I have said all that I've wanted to say to people; mainly those that carry some type of meaning. I have confessed to the one who I feel will be ok in life. And I have experienced a bit of amnesia, which at this point I'd rather stay forgetting. I have made some contributions to people my whole life, its time for me to be just a tiny bit selfish. But i promise this wont last long. I'll be back to my old self again with maybe a few improvements. In this life, this path I have chosen I realize that everything that glitters ain't gold and everything that seems too good to be true probably is. I have not fail in any of my attempts but understand that the time I have, I've made the most of. Its easy for me to say Ill be back but tomorrow is not set yet. These are my words that I claim. Never running from anyone or anything. Standing my grounds is all I have and having brave people behind me.....what more can I ask for. I will miss all of my first. Oh that is saying a bit much. Overall this is no where the end of me. I will right my poetry of everything I see almost to the point to where you would think you were right there with me. Like BTNH said These Are The Days Of Our Lives. These are the days of mine.

Kiss Temptation: ShowDown

That night filling out his fantasy was crazy

But the way I was willing to please him was amazing

I wanted to know where he wanted to go next with this

I couldn't understand him

Until I received a phone call

It was him giving me directions to his place

A place I have never been

Something was up with this situation

So I prepared my body for any occasion

So I took a bath to soften my body

I arrived at his place round 9:30p

Only to be greeted by somebody other than he

So she walked me in saying get comfortable

I was not comfortable

So in the mist of seeing her I was astonished

Her body was very pretty

I wasn't a lesbian or nothing 

I liked what I saw then he saw me

He asked me if I would do anything for him

I said yes, I came here for you

He directed me upstairs

Him in front and her behind, I was scared

She took my hand next and lead me to the bed

Her body was just as soft as mine

Perfume almost exotic

I felt my heart pound like it did with him

She massage my breast so gently and caressed my ass so nicely

My body started to sweat

Then she asked are you ready to be eating  yet

I wanted to say no to her but my body's reaction spoke to her

He sat in a black and gray chair

Looking at us with eyes of pure pleasure

I wanted him to join but she was filling me just fine

He said in the distance this is for you

I won't be joining you

She used her hands and her tongue precisely

I was so filled with great intensity

My body was cumming vigorously

My eyes rolled in the back of my head

I shivered with lust and pleasure

I swear she compared to any man couldn't measure

So I wanted to let him on a to secret

This was not my first time deep sea diving

So I return the favor once I caught my breathe

I went down like it wasn't new

She moan to me, louder they grew

He sat to the edge of his chair

All he could do was stare

She screamed with lust powerful and strong

He started to take his dick out gripping and stroking long

When she caught her final nut I crawled off the bed

Over to him I crawled like I was still hungry and unfed

I was not through

So I made a suggestion that we change rooms

He said now you want to change the venue

I said yes lets go boo

Sincerely Yours,

Act IV

Public Story, Powerful Message

Does it matter who he was to me

He wasn't my lover or enemy

People was always putting him with me

Like we were destined to be together or something

It made me mad when he told me

His girl got mad when she heard about him amd me

I said that bitch is dumb do better

There is something better than this tired ass heifer

I was the ride-a-die friend like I was suppose to be

Nothing changed not even with the people we were dating

We were who we were didn't give a fuck who saw

This is was the level of our friendship

Down for one on one

Then he move to another place

His mama got a better job in another state

I told him no matter what we would still be cool

Four flats on a cadillac, way back in high school

But time went on I heard from him less and less

Summer vacation came around

I said imma spend time with my friend out of town

When I got there it different from his letters

Something was wrong I didnt know any better

He greeted me normally nothing look wrong

Until he heard the phone and caught the call

His eyes got shallow, down and faded

I asked what was wrong

His look I couldn't take it

I said we have been friends for way to long

Is that what we were

I said yes we held each other strong

He finally told me, almost made my heart race

He said the past few months I needed space

I said come on dude please tell me

He said I test positive for HIV

I almost fell down to my knees

Wondering to God why would you take him from me

The disease was way to sever

The doc said he had 4 to 6 months left to live

This was the beginning of my summer

Spending it with a friend, I'm lightening he's thunder

I never forgot those days

All the way down to putting a rose on his grave

So I say these words everybody needs to pray

Don't put off tomorrow, when your not promise today

Sincerely Yours,

PSA

Never Again

I feel like a sucker
Like I was played the fool
Like everything that was told to me was a lie
That every bit of information was a conspiracy
If I only knew......but I didn't
I had chances to stop this bullshyt but I didn't
Now I'm stuck between this nigga and this real nigga shyt
I cant stand drama but it came anyway
All  because I gave a little piece of advice
Now the shyt I said is bringing nothing but strife
Wish I could've cut my tongue out with a knife
Damn I'm starting to hate my life
Can someone relate to me
People come to you seeking
But instead of them heeding
They start bobbing and weaving
I don't get it
One life ruin, he called me out
All he could do was scream and shout
So I said fuck it I'm thru
I'm done with all of you
Six days later it was on the news
My advice turned into shallow bad news
I told him that life was to short to stay
Being in a household where fights go down everyday
If it pains you to see the same bruised faces
Maybe you should leave, there are other places
But in that advice of encouragement
The one that said stay made him stay permanently
He stayed so much he thought no new place could be found
On the news at 4: 30 am his body was found....drown
So this is the price of my advice
Never again...this will never happen twice

Sincerely Yours,

Lost

One Chance

All I need is one last chance

One chance to show you that I love you

One chance to treat you like the man I know you are

One chance to cater my heart to you

Show you how you should be treated

So no other girl could bullshyt you

Understand I do this on my own

No asking needed

No request needs to form

I give myself to you wholeheartedly

That no matter what some day we are destiny

I keep my words short and sweet

To taste you one last time would be my miracle treat

One chance is all I need

To give you all of me

To seal the deal of words I've said

To tell you face to face I'm here to stay

Stay in your heart, use the thought of me

Don't compare me, find someone better than thee

Use what we had as a guide line

To weed out the bitches, the weak and undefined

I will love you until the end of time

One chance....last time

That I will say that you are mine

Sincerely Yours,

I Love You

I Am That Bitch

Why do people look at me

Maybe its because I say things that you are thinking

You bottle yourself deep inside

Don't open up or let your light shine

Never say you wish you were me

There are things that you could never be

Now I know that sounded pretty mean

But lets face it, in my mind I am a queen

I take my licks as they come

I don't run

So who stands against me

There are none

I have been bold for so long

I held my ground

I've stood so strong

I wouldn't tell anyone to get like me

Cause God made you, as well as me

We all have things we need to do

Sometimes it comes easy

Sometimes it comes hard, yes it true

But remember to stay true

You might even say there is a little me in you

So please disregard my attitude

Or mind the things I say cause you its coming

Don't try to make me over like Sybil say

I'm always improving

Always doing....just remember

Don't stand in my way

I'm just saying

Sincerely Yours,

Rude Girl

Farewell Letter To All

I have packed myself away before

But today it doesn't feel the same

In my mind I can honestly say

I maybe running away

Like something here scared me away

I can denie it all day long

But my stay here was prolonged

Its easy for me to say I will never return

Like the times I spent here were not worth it

The friends I've accumulated I shall never forget

Yall have made me even more into a woman

Yall are the ones who put the S on my chest

My poetry is strong

My words cut fierce

I have stood my ground against so many

Had the back of so much

This is the real test but there are so many more to come

So I carry some regrets

Not too many not to get

So I thank everyone that new me

To the Kappa man that put the whip in my nickname

To all those ranting nights at Ron's House

Oh......and the pole at Ron's House

To the Z Ladies for first hearing me speak

To the first Sigma, that sat down

Let me diss him in front of everybody

To those who heard my freaky side DST

To my favorite A Phi that started my writings

Love Night, the starter never finishing

To others who just...never mind

This is my thank you poem to all of you

Ill be back soon

Surprise wearing the proud _____ (rhymes with you..lol)

Sincerely Yours,

Alley Kat (NSU Created)

The Morning After

My eyes still waking

From my back now leaning on my elbows

I look around....this is not my home

I want to get up  to the edge of the bed

But then I look on side of me

Dear God what have I done

I know it wasn't another drunk night

Another coyote ugly moment

naw....I pulled the covers back

He was kinda cute

But what in the hell happen to me

Was this a date rape drug

But I see my clothes fold and my panties visibly 

So what could this have been

Was I so drunk with love and Xstacy

That he knock all the memory out of me

He turned over and in my eyes 

He still look good

Rolling on his back he had morning wood

Which me being a woman I never understood

So I said I need answers on how this scene came to be

So I did what I liked, woke him up my way

Then I heard a "ahh shyt"...he was up

I also heard a "damn girl last night wasn't enough"

Followed by "you know how to do all the right stuff"

I stopped so his eyes can see me

I wanted to ask questions then it dawned on me

Now I remember what happen

But this is just a poem

So imma hold back what really happen after

Sorry......(lol)

Sincerely Yours,

SMH

My First Regret

I did not want it to happen

But it did

My body knew what was happening

But my heart stood still

It remembered so much 

But my body held strong

It didn't get wet

Not one drop at all

I regret the fact that it happen

First time I wish I could turn back the hands of time

Said no at first sight

Walked away, left on the light

This is something I will be account for

Something the Lord wont let me escape from

The devil knew the plans, waited for me

Now I wake up in pain and misery

This is what I feared the most

Something I knew should never be

Now I will die with this mistake to my grave

With shame and improbability

I swore I wouldn't do it again

But I guess the flesh won again

So now I leave this place with a new tag

A sign that says he is who I regret

Sincerely Yours,

Shame Full

Kiss Temptation: His Fantasy For Me

I could not understand this request he made

To invite another into our sexcapades

To let another into our world

So I asked what shall I do

He said nothing but move

So I moved where he wanted me

To the couch is where he sat me

He said this is something more for you

Something I have always wanted to do

My mind started to think of what he could mean

I could not comprehend anything

So he sat her next to me

She stared at me with eyes all hazy

Like she new me and my body

I wanted quickly to ask a question

Then she kiss me with such definition

I scooted back trying to think

She came closer like our bodies were linked

I looked at him as he grabbed a chair

Now I knew what he wanted here

This was not a 3some, something this simple couldn't be

He was filling out his fantasy

So as he requested once again

I opened my mind and allow her to come at me again

He said to me with a whisper so familiar

This is what I want or something similar

So I did it just for him

Then he said stop once again

I asked if there was something wrong 

He said another time....I want this to go on

So another change so quickly, I'm confused

He said once again...lets change the venue

Sincerely Yours,

Act III

Kiss Temptation: New Ideas

It seemed that this was so on going

His constantly leaving

My constant cumming

He made it feel so natural

I wondered what he really thought of me

Someone like me with a massive amount of experiences

I could never shake the feeling he brings me

The many ways we kiss how it tames me

To be honest some days I wish we would conversant

Not let our body language take over and permeate

It so obvious that these escapades would continue

No matter how many times we change the venue

So its easy to obey his call

Meet at place that he recall

Fall down to my knees with every kiss

Not a day goes by I don't miss it

So he comes to me like normal

Not really out of the ordinary

Until he brought her and said

Are you ready?

My mind thought what could this be

He proposed a 3some.....

Him, her and me

 Sincerely Yours,

Act II

A Real Blog

25 years today, I was brought into this world......OK...enough of the sob story. This is a special blog that I am dedicating to myself but really for the world to read. I am in this world for a reason. I have done so many things in my life to last me maybe a lifetime. It interesting how people who I have never met before come to me, how I can fall in love with someone who has only seen me twice or how I can write poetry without a second thought. I have so many talents its scary. But I do know this, I have a lot more to learn and more things to do. I will never forget those that have taught me right, taught me wrong or even did me wrong. They are the ones that have molded me into the woman I am today and for this I thank them all. Those individuals taught me lessons that were needed or could have waited. I have no regrets in my life and for the next 25 years I hope I never have them. I have grown to love my enemy and even though my enemy does not love me, whoever they are has not interfered in my life and for that remain lucky that I haven't put my size 11.5W foot up their........anyways (lol), I thank God for everything he has given me, taken from me, and kept me from harm. I would not change the past for anything. It has given me so many opportunities.......and my journey is not yet over.

Sincerely Yours,

Happy Birthday To Me

Another Life

We meet secretly

Destiny like an unsolved mystery

No one knows how we met

No evidence for them to seek

No conclusion for others to reach

We are secrets that carry more in stored

We carve the truth cleaver and swift

So drawn to others ears rumors and bullshyt

We play in denial when others get close

But our expressions never change

Our features never boast

Some may say

That our secret lives may catch up to us some day

But they don't know

We have been foretold

Time has stood still with every meet

To return home to others to eat

I return to my life as a woman  with a man

He returns to his wife always feeling damned

So these are the secrets of the underworld

A place of past diamonds and pearls

Fulfill the anxieties of life

Things that continues to bring us strife

We only share moments in our company

Once we're done go back to being lonely reality

So another week go by, month plus days

We'll meet again to release, talk, let time pass away

Then go back refreshed to accept life once again

Sincerely Yours

Cheaters

Difference in Our Love

I miss him

I made rules to keep us apart

But a small piece of my heart he took

Without my consent my soul shook

I was wrong to fall for someone this young

To place myself in one, so I feel stung

I harden myself to keep from crying

Tears of pain , tell my heart its lying

You can't fall for someone who has not realize

This life has evil, careless eyes

I can't fall to my knees asking this one for forgiveness

I prayed for him indeed

I tried my hand in ways not understood

I fall to side to cross my legs as he stood

We shared feelings together, continues our hunger 

Like to me be his wife, for him be my husband

I am not sure if he will see

The reasons for my leaving is because of he

I cant understand why I had this feeling

Maybe it was the sex, sexual healing

I felt so powerful in his presence

Lost myself realizing we were not destine

I swallow my heart put it back in its place

To save it for someone else

Someone to take his place

So I lay alone without his conversation

Time for me to move on to my next destination

Sincerely Yours,

Young Love

Kiss Temptation

So gently so sweet

Our lips meet

Slowly removing my glasses

So you can fall deep into my eyes...so classy

Pulling me closer into you

I could feel your heartbeat

ba boom, ba boom

It a rhythm I cant escape

I don't want to leave, don't want to escape

The smell of you is driving me wild

Teasing me with your lips, my soul is now on fire

You caress me oh so gently 

Like my clothes are transparent

Every place between cloth and skin

It makes my mind say do it again

More I ask and we're not having sex

But just your touch makes me climax

In fact

There are so many things I could do

But the one thing I want is so untrue

You kiss my neck sweet and sensitive as can be

My legs are failing, I want to fall to my knees

You hold me, not letting me go

My body is screaming yes, but my hearts is trying to say no

I must go, but you wont let me

You kiss my collar bone

Got dammit he's got me

Kissing my skin, my leg raise slightly

You raise it all the way, holding my body tightly

I'm now filled with pure ecstasy

I cant take it anymore please touch me

Like a butler he did as I asked

My heart skipped a beat

I grasp for air

His hands on my breast I was in tune

His lips on mine, he wasn't threw

He stop, stepped back as he said this to me

To be continue he whispered to me

Away he went but without a smile

He was the type to finish what he started

So I knew this venture wasn't over just because we parted

So like he said changing our venue

There is a part two...

To Be Continue

Sincerely Yours,

Act I