My Confession....To Him

I don't deserve you

I don't believe that our love could possibly last

But as I look carefully at us I can see difference 

We are so far and so different

We created a new definition of the word same

Our minds are complex to us

Our bodies even tho never met have met

Our souls waiting patiently to be united

I have learned patience and now learning inner endurance 

There could possibly be no more us

Ill take the blame this time 

Did I do this on purpose?

No

Do I want us to be more?

Yes

But will the life we live give us peace

I don't know 

I don't want to be negative anymore

I want to be like everyone else...at least once

Be like the normal individual

But our paths have lead us in different directions

But when we come together it's our normal

Where no one else is included 

There is no drama except for the one we create

We are friends

We are enemies

We can build and defeat each other

We can guide and distort each other 

No one in this world can bring us down but us

There is so much work that needs to be done

But apart is where the work began 

Together is where the work will continue

But for now I killed you by my words

I have that gift that should have been kept secret

I carry the lyrics that go gold

But to you my lyric made your heart cold

I have no breaks

I refuse to be fake 

But maybe it's a good idea to have little fake traits

Dying to hear you fuss at me about my stupidity

To share my success to a silent empty room

Not a life I wanted to continue with 

But if I have final destroyed us

All I can say is I'm sorry

My air will be thin

My body officially icy cold

Back to the cut throat way I use to be

But this time with a bigger fire to fuel me

A fire that no longer has you as fuel

These are now my mistakes

I'm responsible this time 

These are the chapters I have written

And I have no choice but to stick with them

I'll pray for you

I'll pray for me

And hopefully God will hear me

I guess this is Goodbye my beloved

My Beloved....